[fading99]

It seems to become more and more difficult to find the best words to describe my constant confusion and depression. I tried to explain what I'm going through to an ex-coworker who dropped by a few days ago, and she quickly made up an excuse to leave. People tell me that I isolate myself too much, but I've tried to open up to people, only to end up regreting it, and sinking further into that dark bottomless hole. To be honest, sometimes I would give anything to live on an island, away from anything or anyone that could add to the pain and humiliation depression invites.

[optimize990h]

I had/have similar feelings. I isolate myself because I fear being triggered into a negative state of mind. Being a little paranoid and little less manic has given me a safe place to interact with people. At PC, there are supportive people. I realize, too, that everyone has their own issues to deal with. So, I am learning better diplomacy and timing to create some positive experiences that minimizes pain and humiliation separating me from depression. So, continue to post and try the chat rooms to find positivity to help you. Take care and welcome and hugs.

[AngelWolf3]

That makes complete sense! I have been isolating myself too, lately because it is so much easier to be alone than worry about being triggered, or reminded that I am not as happy as other people. Although I don't like being lonely sometimes, I find I prefer it rather than keeping up a facade of being okay since not a lot of people understand anyway. (had similar experiences about trying to open up not going so well...)

Hugs to you both and yes definitely keep posting.

Call me a hermit.
I don't go out much at all, and sometimes can't get past my bedroom door, and I just sit in front of the computer where I am now.
This place is better than no place.

[whyme17]

it sucks i know exactly how you feel. i isolate myself because i fear of being ignored and humiliated. im only 15 and a big reason i have depression is becasue of the girls at my school, and the people that are suppose to love me. simply girls are b*tches. you cant let anyone fase you, im doing better becasue i realised that the people that want to help you will, and the ones that dont wont show they care at all. i wish i could sit in my room all day in the dark then be with people, im actually scared to go to school, when i leave my house its almost like its to much for me to handle, all the people, i think its social anxiety. sounds like you might have it, im getting help from a counsellor, it helps me alot you should try it if you dont already have one.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by fading99

...sometimes I would give anything to live on an island, away from anything or anyone that could add to the pain and humiliation depression invites.

Makes sense to me.

[depressedalaskan]

I too know that isolation is not a good thing but sometimes it just feel better.

I think when people do not understand our illness, they are the ones who are afraid.

[alone in the world]

I isolate because it surrounds me with no negative talk but my own. being out among others always makes one want to fake it and deep down you are dying. I know the feelings and battle them daily. I just have to make myself perform neessary duties outside the home nad then I am ok. being alone can be so lonely one looses hope and I do not wish that for you. using PC keeps you from isolating because you are reacting to others so keep posting and join the chat rooms. take a stand for your life.