[CastlesInTheAir]

I dont even know what to say anymore. Where is the joy in anything? I barely get by I just keep thinkning it will get better damnit but everytime it does it seems like it is only for a moment then everything dives into an even darker place than before. I'm so tired of feeling last on everyones list, I feel so unbeautiful, so alone, so dead. Is it possible to drown in your own tears? Sometimes I wish it was...I can barely even leave the house anymore to do anything because I dont see the point. I feel unloved, worthless, stuck, sometimes it is so hard to think positive when reality is just a big ball of bs.............

[CastlesInTheAir]

and i am so tired of having to force myself to do ****....how do people just pop out of bed and get going? grrrrrrrrr

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by triciadrich

...i am so tired of having to force myself...

I do not have much success in forcing myself to do anything. I surf my impulses when they're around.

Triciadrich, over the course of any given week, are there any things you don't have to force yourself to do?

I don't know what to say...

i'm there too,
but with you,
___in a way.