[Jakub]

one year ago i lost my first girlfriend which died with a horrible death... i still cant deal with what happen.. i still think that she is alive... sometimes i look at her photograph most of the times i cry because i can't hold it...

because of her death i got depression... it led me to self harming and trying to take my own life... sometimes its stronger than me, i faint and i cant stop crying, also when i cry my heart hurts like mad... i can feel that pain with every part of my body...

i need help :(

[scottandrew65]

Depressive disorders is mostly curable and it is value your while to search for help. Without therapy, it can proceed for a while. When you tell your physician that you experience like this, he or she will examine that you do not have any other sickness. There are a variety of other circumstances which can existing with very identical signs. He or she may recommend an anti-depressant. It is a wise decision to also see a psycho therapist as there are therapy techniques, mainly cognitive-behavioural therapy and mindfulness-based psychotherapy which work for depression and avoiding upcoming periods.

[regretful]

Grief has no time-table, especially when the loss is so sudden like your's was. I'm very sorry for your loss. There is plenty of support here; you may also consider grief support groups as there is healing and safety in numbers. If groups don't feel right to you, then consider some individual therapy or pastoral counseling.

[Turtleboy]

What an awful thing to happen, my heart goes out to you i can't imagine what you are going through. i think you should at least try to start to deal with it, it might take a long time but take it at your own pace

[layla11]

Hi Jakub, I am sorry to hear what you are going thru. I have been to group therapys where there were people dealing with sudden and violent deaths. Please go, I went to mine thru a hospital here in town. Do this for yourself. They have trained people who can help you heal. Hope you keep posting too and welcome.

Sorry for your loss.

i lost my mom 3 months ago.
i keep her alive by thinking of her everyday.
in a way she is still alive to me, and i go to her grave every other day to clean up around the area. to me it seems like ime still taking care of her.
i have tons of pictures of my mom, and i bring flowers to her occasionly.

You will always think of her, and it is good to always remember.
you must have loved her deeply.
i know she would want you to take care of yourself.
i hope your grief lessens and you think of the happier times you spent w/her.

[Jakub]

omg... thank you all of you... i never expected things like this being said by people here... love you all and stay strong