[coneyislandbaby]

I know it's not good for me to isolate myself but I really don't feel like being around anyone. I just got back from a two-hour concert.. I'm exhausted from taking Xanax every night to sleep (and still getting very little sleep) and I feel depressed, anxious and just blah.. I don't want to meet up with a bunch of people at a bar.

I don't want people to think my problems are so bad that I am becoming a shut-in but I really don't have it in me to go out.

I know I'm too young to feel this way and I wish I could be normal and enjoy my life, and that life is passing me by, but tonight I just can't do it.

I don't know if I am ever going to come out of this.. probably not.. I hope I die young.. life has just become to difficult, meaningless and pointless. (I'm not suicidal, I just feel hopeless and like crap).

[Leed]

You're not going to like this, but it's time to see a therapist. The fact that you're young and you're feeling hopeless is not a good sign! You really do need to talk to someone who is trained to deal with this depression that you're suffering from. Depression can be a very serious illness -- I've been dealing with it since I was a very small child and for many years, it ruled my life. Now I've got a handle on it, and I rule IT. Therapy was VERY instrumental in helping me deal with it and I'll never regret going. So please make an appointment!

Also, be VERY careful with the Xanax -- it is extremely addictive!! I became addicted to it very quickly after my doctor prescribed it for anxiety. It was very very difficult to withdraw from. Don't stop abruptly from taking it, as that is very dangerous. Just a word of warning.

Again, I hope you'll make an appointment for therapy. I wish you the very best. Take care and God bless. Hugs, Lee

[coneyislandbaby]

Thanks for the advice. I am seeing a therapist, but I only see her once a week. I'd try to also see a psychiatrist but I have so many medical issues right now I can't even fit it into my schedule. :/ My PCP is the one that gave me the Celexa, at my request, that I am taking right now, and I don't even know if it's working.

[Cook2Soothe]

Originally Posted by Leed

You're not going to like this, but it's time to see a therapist. The fact that you're young and you're feeling hopeless is not a good sign! You really do need to talk to someone who is trained to deal with this depression that you're suffering from. Depression can be a very serious illness -- I've been dealing with it since I was a very small child and for many years, it ruled my life. Now I've got a handle on it, and I rule IT. Therapy was VERY instrumental in helping me deal with it and I'll never regret going. So please make an appointment!

Also, be VERY careful with the Xanax -- it is extremely addictive!! I became addicted to it very quickly after my doctor prescribed it for anxiety. It was very very difficult to withdraw from. Don't stop abruptly from taking it, as that is very dangerous. Just a word of warning.

Again, I hope you'll make an appointment for therapy. I wish you the very best. Take care and God bless. Hugs, Lee

Great advice Leed!