[tigerlily84]

I promised to go to my friend's house for a birthday party thing. I really don't feel like going. I feel empty. I don't know how else to describe it... just devoid of feeling. Is this my depression coming back? Does anyone else ever feel like this?

[jelly-bean]

It could be signaling the return of your depression or maybe with luck you just have the blahs. I hope it's the latter.

[onlytime]

I'm sorry you're feeling so empty - I HATE that feeling! Emptiness is definitely difficult to explain. For me, it's an intense emotion of having a huge void inside of me. Is that how you feel too?

How was your friend's birthday party? I have a hard time motivating myself to get out and be social when I'm feeling depressed, but I find that isolating makes me feel worse.

Do you see a therapist?

Hang in there!

[Leed]

It sure sounds like the depression coming back. Are you on medication? If you're not, I'd talk to my doctor and tell him what's going on. It sounds like you NEED to be on medication, and possible for quite awhile.

If you have frequent bouts of depression, it's possible you might need to STAY on medication. Going on and off of the medication doesn't make sense. The depression will just keep coming back. Talk to your doctor about it.

I wish you the very best. God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee

[tigerlily84]

Originally Posted by jelly-bean

It could be signaling the return of your depression or maybe with luck you just have the blahs. I hope it's the latter.

I thought it was the blahs too, but it's been something that's been coming and going for a few weeks now. I was doing great too. It's pretty hot here but I've been trying to stay productive by giving the dogs baths and vaccumming and such. meh

[tigerlily84]

Originally Posted by onlytime

I'm sorry you're feeling so empty - I HATE that feeling! Emptiness is definitely difficult to explain. For me, it's an intense emotion of having a huge void inside of me. Is that how you feel too?

How was your friend's birthday party? I have a hard time motivating myself to get out and be social when I'm feeling depressed, but I find that isolating makes me feel worse.

Do you see a therapist?

Hang in there!

onlytime - I hate this feeling too! And you described this feeling to a T. I just kind of stare into space. Nothing really holds any meaning for me at the moment. It's like I'm watching someone else's life. It's weird. When I was well into my major depression a few years ago, it didn't feel like this. So this feeling of emptyness is new for me. And I didn't end up going. And I feel like a jerk because I promised that I would. Also, I work with this person so I'll have to see them during the week. I should've just gone.

I don't have a therapist. I need one. I did some digging around online and found some clinics in the area that offer low-cost mental health services nearby. They're sponsored by the state. So wish me luck!

Thank you so much for your response. It's good to know I'm not alone in this feeling.

[tigerlily84]

Originally Posted by Leed

It sure sounds like the depression coming back. Are you on medication? If you're not, I'd talk to my doctor and tell him what's going on. It sounds like you NEED to be on medication, and possible for quite awhile.

If you have frequent bouts of depression, it's possible you might need to STAY on medication. Going on and off of the medication doesn't make sense. The depression will just keep coming back. Talk to your doctor about it.

I wish you the very best. God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee

Hi Leed! Nope, no medication. I used to take it but I stopped on my own. I know, stupid move on my part. My first major bout of depression ended about a couple years ago. Moving home helped immensely but I still struggle with it as you can tell. And I've been thinking the same thing, that I need to give medication a real chance. I can't put off seeing a therapist any longer. I'm tired of feeling this way, over and over again. Thanks for your kind words.

[onlytime]

Originally Posted by tigerlily84

onlytime - I hate this feeling too! And you described this feeling to a T. I just kind of stare into space. Nothing really holds any meaning for me at the moment. It's like I'm watching someone else's life. It's weird. When I was well into my major depression a few years ago, it didn't feel like this. So this feeling of emptyness is new for me. And I didn't end up going. And I feel like a jerk because I promised that I would. Also, I work with this person so I'll have to see them during the week. I should've just gone.

I don't have a therapist. I need one. I did some digging around online and found some clinics in the area that offer low-cost mental health services nearby. They're sponsored by the state. So wish me luck!

Thank you so much for your response. It's good to know I'm not alone in this feeling.

I'm sorry you didn't end up going to the party. Don't beat yourself up for it! These things happen and they should understand.

Finding a therapist could be really helpful! I do understand the difficulty of finding an affordable one though! Good luck!

[CgRgSm]

tigerlily84,

Yes, it sounds like depression. Loss of interest. I feel like this all of the time. Well, I felt like this for most of my life. When you say "It's like I'm watching someone else's life" that is exactly how I feel. I feel like I am watching this person go through this miserable life with absolutely no control over what he is doing. You could be having mood swings too, that is what I have. It is where sometimes you might think you are perfectly ok, you can be around people and smile and laugh a little. But then something hits you, you forget entirely about being able to smile or laugh and you don't want to do anything. I don't know how to help you, but I am truly sorry you are experiencing these things.