[Moraganal]

I feel as though everything I do leads to nothing. I've lost all my friends, no family. Even if I gained something in my life again. What would it be for... what would it mean. Would it just leave again as if nothing had happened. My life is just a recurring state of past lives I feel i'm living. There is no hope in my mind for anything. Although I tend to feel differently on some occasions. Maybe i'll change my mind tomorrow who knows.

[Leed]

Bless your heart. You're pretty depressed, aren't you. I know how that feels cause I was there once. Thank God I got treatment.

You don't have to live like that anymore. There is treatment for this. Talk to your medical doctor, and he can refer you to a good therapist. A therapist can help you get to the root of your depression.

If you cannot afford therapy, then your medicall doctor can put you on an antidepressant. Please don't say you hate medicines because there are some that won't bother you. At least give them a try. Talk to your doctor -- believe me, he can help you.

God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee

[Kingsley85]

You said you sometimes feel a little different so that shows change is possible for you. Don't lose hope. You need support from a therapist and other doctors. When you have a small support network, like it sounds like you have from your post, they can help fill it in for you so that you have people on your side. They can help support you until you feel better and are able to make new friends and to eventually meet a partner. Don't feel bad, there was a time when I felt only my therapist was on my side but I was able to feel better and now I have several friends who know what I'm going through and who care about me.

Hang in there and let us know how you are doing, I hope you get some relief soon, you deserve to have a nice day.