don't know how to do this or be safe

Was feeling up today but now I am coming down. realize my trigger is my daughter and her schooling. my worry about how well she is not doing and her inability to get up in the morning dictates my mood. Now I am sitting her with my anxiety rising and feeling like a failure. beoming so scared of her failing and it reflecting on me as a not supporting parent because there are days when I can't get out the bed to care for her properly or make sure her school work gets completed. these are the times when I needed the 6 xanax. I just want to disappear but I don't want to hurt my children. confused and do not want to disturb my T with this. need some advice or some one to just realize my pain. don't want to be in this state alone.

Hi Alone. You really need to "bother" your therapist with your worries. That is why you have a therapist. If you are severely bothered by these worries then you have to tell your T. It is important to you and your daughter both. The proper medication and counseling can make all the difference in the world in your ability to be a good Mother and your ability to feel good about yourself. TELL him or her, please.

thanks for the advice, I know I should call her I just feel so dependent on her, and don't like it.

Hugss feel same talk to anyone who may understand xxx

I know what you mean about being dependent. I feel that way too but my therapist has really helped me increase my problem solving skills. So don't feel bad, think of her as a teacher and when there is something you can't handle ask for help and maybe next time you can handle it by yourself.