[Smudge!]

Hey! I have been to my GP on Wednesday and he put me on strong tablets 30mg zispin, 20mg lexapro, xanax .5mg (3 times daily). I am not a person that likes to take tablets. But I will take them to see how I go. But all I want to do is just finish it all. But I think of my fiancé at the last minute (every time I try anything) and i stop! Is there any end to it all. My doc has told me to "put myself first" I told him if I do I'll kill myself. It's putting other people stop me. :-(

Smudge!

[Miswimmy1]

take the medication! I know, I hate it too, but when i think of all the ppl that luv me and I think of my therapist, I know that I can't do anything. Continue to think of your gf! your in my thoughts

[alone in the world]

take the meds and give them the opportunity to work. There are ppl out there who truely care and would be lost without you. I to hate the meds but see what happens when I stop and it not pretty. Will be thinking about you.

[Smudge!]

Thank u both for the kind messages! I will try and give the tablets some time to work!

Smudge!

[onlytime]

I second what others have already said about trying the meds. Also, if you're feeling that unsafe, please tell someone or go to the emergency room!

[puzzclar]

I'm like you, I am still alive due to other people.... Can't give in because I know I'm still needed, but miserable... Meds help, but keep thinking of others, there's much for all of us to do... but things take time.

I too put others first to keep myself alive. I despise the meds but I also love them because they make life a little closer to bearable without all the weight.

[Smudge!]

Thanks you everyone. In a way it's great to know that I am not the only one feeling this way! But then I wouldn't wish how I am feeling on other people. So I am also sorry that ye feel the same way. So thank ye all.

Smudge!

[Setso]

hang in there smudge its going to be okay

[Bmee2]

Not that this will help anyone but: one thing that has helped me is to think of what i can do today to help myself feel better. Sometimes all i can do is sleep. So sleep. Sometimes i can do something for someone else...get out of bed and get dressed by the time someone gets home. What can you do today that will help you feel better or help someone else feel better which in turn helps you feel better?

[Smudge!]

I'll give that a try for a week r so (if I can) and see how it goes!

Smudge!

[James0805]

Originally Posted by Smudge!

Hey! I have been to my GP on Wednesday and he put me on strong tablets 30mg zispin, 20mg lexapro, xanax .5mg (3 times daily). I am not a person that likes to take tablets. But I will take them to see how I go. But all I want to do is just finish it all. But I think of my fiancé at the last minute (every time I try anything) and i stop! Is there any end to it all. My doc has told me to "put myself first" I told him if I do I'll kill myself. It's putting other people stop me. :-(

Smudge!

I was feeling suicidal. My doc put me on paxil. It felt so very long before it would kick in. It took about 6 weeks. I don't feel that way anymore. The meds have helped a lot. A psychiatrist told me to go the emergency room if I ever feel that way again. It was good advice

[Kingsley85]

Like others have said medication can take one or two months to kick in, although some people get lucky and it helps faster. I had to find a reason not to kill myself. I remind myself how devastated the people around me would be, so I stay alive for them. I hope you can find a reason not to hurt yourself. And I hope you start to feel better. Dont be afraid to go to the hospital, it's not the end of the world, I had to do it a couple years ago.