Which is what I tried to do.
I was feeing irritated too.
I tried keeping it on the down low
but wasn't shy to say how I felt.
Mainly I was okay until I got to the
Crossroads Mall library located in the Mall.
Little kids running everywhere, it got on my last nerve too.
I'm trying to relax by walking into the damn library when
a kid runs by at top speed almost knocking my umbrella out of my hand
Good thing he said something like sorry because I was in no mood to overlook that. These kids are wild & reckless. Its like they've had too much Ritalin or sugar hell I don't know! The there are those itty,bitty kids that are below the knee that you don't pay attention to.
I'm amazed that I haven't knocked one down because I don't always remember to LOOK DOWN!
I went to the library because it was the closest in distance and I needed to type up some to do lists, you know TRY to get organized as well as type up some things that I want my new therapist to help me out with.
So I typed up two lists.
But the library computers are always so busy! That I had to reserve computer time which the next one that would be available wasn't for another half & hour.
But, I had no choice everyone I wanted to do something busy like be constructive with my time and all so I reserved the computer.
I then got the HELL out of the library and grabbed a mall chair & table to sit down to basically .....BROOD! I wasn't in the most stellar of moods.
I torn off a piece of Cadbury chocolate hmmmm and then tore into an orange.
Then I pulled out my pocket memo pad to write something down. When I was bored with that I got up and walked around until I spotted a chess game in progress.
At the mall they have this oversized chess board on the floor with big chess pieces black & light brown. I mean real huge. And people sign up to play.
So, I sat down to watch figuring I could learn something then relax as I don't get to sit to watch much games.
I liked it. I like chess but haven't played since I was about 14 years old. Playing with my StepFather he was always such an *** because he was a better player, the same with my cousin.
But I like the game.
I hope to sign up for lessons sometime down the road then get into a tournament or two who knows?
By this time it was time for my library computer session.
Same old aggravating kids.
One teen kid who was sitting at my station when my computer was coming up within a couple of minutes of my reserve coming available just parked his lazy *** in the seat until I said "I have this computer reserved"
Then the jerk adjusts the seat so low that you'd have to be a toddler to have sat in it!
I said to him in a sarcastic manner the following:
"It was so nice of you to lower the seat, I mean its almost perfect ....if your an Oompa Loompa" I had said to the teen. Hey I was irritated and I wanted to let him know how I felt. Because I'm always ignored, my feelings seem to never matter so what the hell I'm going to talk back. Why not! I might as well get some sort of satisfaction.
This little outing helped some, my agitation & irritability seemed to be kept at bay. Bottom line I just didn't give a damn what anyone thought I was out for ME & no one else!
What a way to live!
Life as I've said before just ....BLOWS! I'm tired of everything. People ignoring you & acting like your not there. The bigotry, these folks in Washington can all go to hell as far as I'm concerned.

[Leed]

Mercy! The anger! I've felt like this before for short periods of time, but it almost sounds like this anger is a frequent visitor to you. True?

Have you ever been in therapy? If not, it might be time to try. I've been thru therapy, and believe me it has helped immensely!

There are reasons for that anger, and you would undoubtedly find the root cause of it in therapy. Perhaps you even know what it is, but don't know how to deal with it. Therapy can show you how.

Sometimes there are other causes too that we aren't even aware of, until we enter therapy. We have buried them so far back in our minds that we can't bring them out anymore. The therapist can, though.

How about having your doctor refer you to a good therapist? He will know the best one to send you to. Give him a call -- he'll get you in.

I wish you the very best. God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee

[CharactorAssassin]

Its this Babylonian system. Kids on sugar and Ritalin and religion

Sounds a litle like Maxine.

Stop being so judgemental.
I've already left you a reply on that.
I feel that you are insulting my feelings.
I need to express myself.
You don't even know me.
If you can't say something supportive
then please don't reply.
I'm struggling its why I'm on here
on psyche central.
I have a mental illness
So I'm not Donna Reed.

Originally Posted by CharactorAssassin

Its this Babylonian system. Kids on sugar and Ritalin and religion

?????????

Originally Posted by genetic

Sounds a litle like Maxine.

Don't know who Maxine is and I don't really care, but if you can't say something supportive then don't say anything at all.
I'm on this site for a reason.
I'm doing the best that I can.
Thanks you all for the insults.
Makes me feel soooo much better.

[CharactorAssassin]

Originally Posted by Tormented&Tortured

?????????

Nm me. I crazy.

Originally Posted by Tormented&Tortured

Don't know who Maxine is and I don't really care, but if you can't say something supportive then don't say anything at all.
I'm on this site for a reason.
I'm doing the best that I can.
Thanks you all for the insults.
Makes me feel soooo much better.

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Maxine is a cartoon character who has unusual experiences in life in dealing with people. It was not meant to hurt you; it was meant to try to relieve a little of the tension you feel. Sorry I posted that. Won't happen again.

And I hope you feel better.

You're right, of course, about "if you can't say something supportive, don't say anything at all". My father used to say that often, and he was
a very fine man.

I do hope you'll feel better soon.

I know how you feel. I don't know if this can be of help to you, but I feel like I'm going through the same thing.

I own and lived at my condo for 13 years and liked it. I also feel attached to it. And now I'm making a heartbreaking decision to sell the place. I want to sell because I want to get out as soon as possible. The place and the area is very nice, but the people are not.

At night, like around 8, I like to go to the pool area and relax in the hot tub. I feel like I am alone and lonely and I go there hoping to meet some nice people. It just doesn't happen. In fact, all I see are just couples that are so much in love. And they just totally ignore me. They act like they don't want me there. Well, I have to be in agreement on that because I don't want them there either! And now lately, there's a teenaged couple that comes in every single night and they stay for at least two hours. If I'm in there, they don't even say hello or anything else. They act like they are really cool, and I think that they are a couple of jerks.

I feel like I am the only single person living there. It seems like the people look down on me because of that. Sometimes I feel like someone had spread all kinds of untrue gossips about me. I'm so sick of the ostracizing that I get at my place. It's weird that at where I live, there's more backbiting and cut-throat than at my corporate job! I thought that home is supposed to be a heavenly retreat from the cold cruel world out there. Not at my place!

I hope that you feel better. I hope that I will feel better soon myself. I feel like this whole thing has made me turn other people off. And also I feel like I can't sleep at night. My heart gets racing when I'm almost home from work. Isn't that pathetic?

[CharactorAssassin]

You feel like the outsider. So do I.

[CharactorAssassin]

In my life all my friends and family and everyone went through nuclear fusion and here I am the outsider. No where left to stand.