im just a burden

I've been doing okay for the most part the past month or so, except for when im at school. I dont know what happens, all the other people there and everything, its just hard. It makes me start thinking negative things and my mood just goes way down. There are people at my school who are really nice to me and everything, but I still just sit alone at lunch, crying almost everyday because im too scared to talk to anyone cause everyone always in a damn group! I dont always do well in groups, especially when everyone starts talking all at once. It's really odd because yesterday I got out of school and my friend (who doesnt go to my school) came by, and she knows people there and then I hung out with here and some other people and i was actually doing pretty good. This kind opf thing makes me sooo freakin frustrated with myself cause i proved to myself I can talk to people without getting all nervous n uncomfortable n scared. I dont know, sometimes it feels like ive developed into 2 people: one whos scared of people because they can be, well, scary lol they can disapoint you, lie to you, hirt you, and I dont want to take that risk because I think of people - well most people, there can be exceptions - as extension of myself and vice versa, and if they don't accept me than apart of me isnt accepting me and I just dont belong and blablablah and; and then the other is like this self accepting person who thinks whatever is just is, and feels like anything could happen and is okay with other people, and thinks they are extensions of myself but just because they accept me or not doesnt mean anything, its just that were all in different stages and yayayah. I dont know, its just weird how my perception of things can change so drasticalely in a very short period of tkme. I dont know, sometimes its like i get so cuaght up in the moment that its all I see and it just gets so aaaaaargh!

blaaaaeeeeh im just frustrated with myself.

Wishing positive vibes upon you all

You just need to understand that you are FINE just the way you are!!! There is NOTHING wrong with you!!! The people who don't accept you are the one's who have the problem! They are snobs! YOU aren't the one with the problem.

Just join in with the groups, and you will find that most of them WILL accept you! You are very likeable! You are a very sweet person. You just seem to have a low opinion of yourself, and you need to know that you are a great person! You don't need to change for anyone! You should NOT change for anyone. That would be wrong. Anyone who does NOT accept you is the one who has the problem -- NOT YOU.

You are just fine the way you are -- this is how God made you and this is how He wants you to be. You are special just as you are!!! So STAY that way. Join the groups -- they WILL like you. Just relax in the groups. Stop worrying about whether they like you or not. They WILL. And stop worrying about what to say. It will come. Just plain stop worrying --- OKAY??? You are just FINE. God bless and take care. Love & hugs, Lee

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Thank you so very much, Lee! You always know just the right things to say