[ascin]

I just don't get it. Everything in my life is getting better. Why can't I stop feeling so suicidal? Don't want to go to hospital. Don't know if I can continue like this much longer. Please don't let me go on like this much longer. I can't take much more.

Cynthia Ryan

[darkeyes]

Hi there,
Have you ever seen a therapist or pdoc about this depression?
If you haven't perhaps they can help you and you may not have to go to the hospital to stay, sometimes it is about 4 to 10 days for observation and mood stabilization with meds. it does get better, slowly, but it will and if you work along with the professionals it may help speed up recovery.
Just my 2 cents, meanwhile feel free to come and talk to the others, sometimes I find it better than therapy, and you don't have to dish out the cash Please do not misunderstand me, it isn't meant to replace therapy, etc. but the people here are great to talk to.
Please take care

In giving advice seek to help, not please your friend
SOLON

[soscared]

Hi ascin;
Ditto on the therapist/doctor.

Sometimes when things have been bad for so long, we get into a place where we are always on edge or just go with the flow(For a lack of better words)
Then when we are so used to being in that mode and things are going really well we don't know what to do with those feelings, that should be making us feel real good. Sometimes we end up with a lot of guilty feelings which in turn lead to many more bad feelings.
I know this sounds a little mixed up but I hope you can get the just of it.
Glad you came here to post and join us, there are lots of very caring people here who sincerley understand what each of us are going through.

Hang in There, do what ever you can to get the help you may need and keep posting.
WELCOME!!!!!!

[treadingwater]

I hear you .It's like talking to myself.Just yesterday i was feeling suicidal!What's changed?you tell me-the day-serotonin levels?Going to the hospital is very hard and it isn't?We decide!.I've felt what you feel.I know your pain.My shrink always told me that if things we're unbearable to go to the hospital.He's right!That's if i couldn't reach his emergency service.I thought i couldn't take much more yesterday!Here i am today.I tried to kill myself last October.I still wonder what went wrong.Right now i like "WRONG".Keep in touch please.