[foolish38]

I have been battling with depression since I was 12. Did'nt start getting help untill I was 23. I had my first child at 25 and my second at 30. My kids became my life line. I really don't think I would still be here if it was'nt for them. They are the reason for getting up in the morning. I try to keep a smile on my face. I don't want them to see me crying, which I do alot. Sometimes I tell them it's my allergies. I have not worked in 7 years and eventhough I do recieve benifits money is still tight. I have been considering going back to work but my doctors are telling me no. The constant voices in my head won't stop! I can watch the news and start crying! I can see a baby in the store and start up! It's so frustrating. When others around me are going thru stressful times I get upset with my self cause I can't help them! Why do I feel like I have to take on the world all the time? I hear a baby crying somewhere in my apartments right now and all I want to do is go and see if it's okay.

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, Foolish38!

Originally Posted by foolish38

When others around me are going thru stressful times I get upset with my self cause I can't help them! Why do I feel like I have to take on the world all the time?

That "I'm responsible for everything" feeling/urge/compulsion is certainly something to investigate with assistance. Have your doctors ever discussed it with you?

[foolish38]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Hello & Welcome, Foolish38!

That "I'm responsible for everything" feeling/urge/compulsion is certainly something to investigate with assistance. Have your doctors ever discussed it with you?

I am in the process of finding a new doctor cause I don't feel like he listens to me.

[everything]

Originally Posted by foolish38

I am in the process of finding a new doctor cause I don't feel like he listens to me.

Yep, some doctors are better than others. It would be a good idea to calmly let the doctor know how you feel and let them know you are considering switching. It'll help them be a better doctor and they might be able to turn it around and really help you.

I've also battled depression from an early age, for me it was like 8. And when you have it for that long it becomes you, but you can always change. We all change more than we realize. Best of luck and much love to you

[WiShEs.Of.ThE.hEaRt]

foolish38 I once had a doctor that I hated so much. He never seemed to listen to me, pushed everything aside. I am 16 years old, and I have been struggling with depression since I was 10. The one time I tried to tell my doctor I was hearing voices and he told me "I don't believe you are. You are crazy." This was my doctor when I was in the Psychiatric unit. I wanted a new doctor so bad, but in order to get a new doctor there you had to talk to the doctor that you have about switching doctors. And of course I was only 14 so I was scared to ask him. Long story short, I never did get a new doctor, the voices continued, and I was sent home a couple days after. Within a week of being out I was in another psychiatric unit... My advice to you is if you want a new doctor, go and get a new one. You can never get any better if you aren't given the care you need.

[foolish38]

Originally Posted by everything

Yep, some doctors are better than others. It would be a good idea to calmly let the doctor know how you feel and let them know you are considering switching. It'll help them be a better doctor and they might be able to turn it around and really help you.

I've also battled depression from an early age, for me it was like 8. And when you have it for that long it becomes you, but you can always change. We all change more than we realize. Best of luck and much love to you

I understand we all change but when we do change does'nt the change stay? do you go back to your old ways?

[foolish38]

Originally Posted by WiShEs.Of.ThE.hEaRt

foolish38 I once had a doctor that I hated so much. He never seemed to listen to me, pushed everything aside. I am 16 years old, and I have been struggling with depression since I was 10. The one time I tried to tell my doctor I was hearing voices and he told me "I don't believe you are. You are crazy." This was my doctor when I was in the Psychiatric unit. I wanted a new doctor so bad, but in order to get a new doctor there you had to talk to the doctor that you have about switching doctors. And of course I was only 14 so I was scared to ask him. Long story short, I never did get a new doctor, the voices continued, and I was sent home a couple days after. Within a week of being out I was in another psychiatric unit... My advice to you is if you want a new doctor, go and get a new one. You can never get any better if you aren't given the care you need.

Thank you for your reply and yes I decided to find a new doctor. I think this one just has to many clients to deal with.

[everything]

Originally Posted by foolish38

I understand we all change but when we do change does'nt the change stay? do you go back to your old ways?

You might never go back to how you were. It's tough to tell. But that's the thing about change, it's unpredictable and it's constant. We really reach out for change and its one of the things that keeps life fun and exciting.

[TIM11]

Originally Posted by foolish38

I have been battling with depression since I was 12. Did'nt start getting help untill I was 23. I had my first child at 25 and my second at 30. My kids became my life line. I really don't think I would still be here if it was'nt for them. They are the reason for getting up in the morning. I try to keep a smile on my face. I don't want them to see me crying, which I do alot. Sometimes I tell them it's my allergies. I have not worked in 7 years and eventhough I do recieve benifits money is still tight. I have been considering going back to work but my doctors are telling me no. The constant voices in my head won't stop! I can watch the news and start crying! I can see a baby in the store and start up! It's so frustrating. When others around me are going thru stressful times I get upset with my self cause I can't help them! Why do I feel like I have to take on the world all the time? I hear a baby crying somewhere in my apartments right now and all I want to do is go and see if it's okay.

ask god for help hes the one