[Valis]

Saying I'm depressed seems like an understatement...I mean, people are depressed everyday...people "feel" sad every moment of our lives, and it seems like for me, to just be "depress" is more of a liability for whining rather than an expression of how I feel.

I feel worse than depressed...I feel like the absence of nothing, and even that statement in a sense doesn't accurately describe how I feel.

Basically...what I'm saying, is that I'm tired of the cute label thats stamped across my forhead which reads: depressed.

I'm tired of whining about it.

I'm just tired of everything.

Sigh...another random vent.

[(JD)]

(((hugs))) yep that's depression. I wouldn't call it "cute." It's a real disorder that we battle... if it were so easy, it wouldn't be so difficult. (HUH???)

sigh. I'm there.

[Valis]

It may not be "cute", but thats how I feel people treat depression...like it's something meant for pity rather than understanding....

You know what I mean?

Thanks sky.

i don't know anyone who treats depression as being cute. i think i understand your post. i know that i feel a nothingness........but i know that i can get past it, eventually.......i hope you keep posting. xoxox pat

[Lexicon78]

I think our depression is too terrible for words. I agree that if you say you're depressed then people make light of it. At least in my life that's how it is. They think depression is like being disappointed that you didn't get picked for the football team or something. They have no clue.

[therealme]

yes i also feel depression is a label we are given,
i have been off work now for over 6 months, and my boss and work mates dont understand , they just think its a easy way to get time off work, i wish i could get back to work and bring some money into the house .
even my own family dont understand they just see that im off work and on meds, they expect me to be the same person i was before .........
i wish they would come up with a different name for depression..... like.... "life disorder " or something like that...
omg i started off by answering a post and ended ranting away .... sorry

[walkswithspiritbear]

Boy nothing at all like having everyone trying to help and say to your face anyhow, just let my know if I can do anything, while patting your shoulder....Vilas (((HUGS))) if you like... that patronizing that so many so many do in this world. This is one of those things that almost makes me grateful that I am housebound and don't have to deal with people who pretend to care and understand..
Hmmm seems like I just did what realme did, ranting while trying to help someone else.
Vilas at least I know here that the people are sincere and don't just look at the label but at the person.. You are not the label.. You are not depressed you are Vilas. Take care and I have eyes that can read and fingers to type if you need to pm.. and that is a sincere offer of friendship and care from one label to another... Linda

[Valis]

Thanks for the reality check Fayerody.

Thanks for expressing how I EXACTLY feel Lexicon78 and Therealme.

Thank you for relating Walkwithspiritbear and the offer of friendship (which I try to never pass up).

I do think that getting past "nothingness" is not the problem...it's having a vision of what life is like after getting past the feelings of "nothingness"

I have no vision what comes after the feelings and ideals of "nothingness".

I don't know where I'm going, or where I will end up and I have no tangible plan or even clue what will happen to me a day from now . No bull.

I don't know... for a long time I have been isolated from a lot of aspects of society, and not because I wanted to (very bad home life...that sums it up).

I feel that because of this gap between what I experinced in life, and what so many others have experinced, I cannot make anyone understand what it means to be depressed to me (besides going to therapist 4 times a month).

I feel that if I utter the word "depressed" to anybody besides my therapist, it's automatically translated in one of the two ways Lexicon78 and Therealme said.

Basically...I feel that since I cannot (don't know why) express what I'm feeling to others in a different way besides saying, "I'm very severely depressed" I get grouped in with what people call "the misfits crowd".

I don't want to be grouped.

I don't want to be labeled.

I don't want my emotional expressions to determine how I'm precieved.

Maybe I'm just worrying about the grass on the other side of the fence too much.

I don't know. I'm not even sure what I'm trying to point out.

[dreaming2fly]

can really understand how your feeling valis..
(((((((valis))))))) only if ok..

Kat