Push to the edge

I have class in like 7 minutes, but I have to get this out.... I want to just scream, and tell everyone that I'm fine, and then push myself to continue on like nothing happened...

Has anyone pushed themselves beyond what they know they can do? If so what happened?

All. The. Time. My mom (who is homophobic) will say some of the most harshest things about homosexual people to me and she literally judges me, throws Bible scriptures about homosexuality at me, and will laugh and grin in my face when I am ticked off and she will ask from time to time if I'm okay when I am like really silent and it's so annoying because she will ask the same thing several times and it's really irritating. I can't tell her I'm mad because then she'll start a rediculously pointless argument that makes me feel worse. I hope this is what you meant by your post's description but I do feel the same way most of the time.

more like doing things until either your mind sends you into a very dark place, or impacting the immune system and making you sick.

I guess I'm going to have to push through this, I have a sinus infection that I've had now for 7 weeks. And because of that I have had to keep myself going, even when I shouldn't be driving.... ya this bites.

I have to push myself just to get up in the morning and complete simple tasks like breakfast and showering. Soon I'll be pushing myself into an intensive outpatient program. I am socially inept so group therapy might be rough. I'm nervous but excited.