[xrainstormx]

I wish all the issues I have would just disapear. I want them to go away. I want all the %#@&#! to stop. I know that I am going to have to deal with this for the rest of my life and that is only going to be more depressing. Why? (tear). My parents suck, my friends treat me like %#@&#!, I have been sexual abused, I have an eating disorder, OCD, I get panic attacks, I cut, and it is all so much. The only good thing is my boyfriend but is that enough? I see a doctor but that isn't helping. I wish everything were good, I hate this. I HATE THIS.

[(JD)]

Ongoing therapy does work, (((hugs))) hang in there it can be a slow process...but eventually... you'll feel better. Many of what you listed are not life long disorders, but symptoms of the pain you have felt... it won't always be this bad.

[Rhapsody]

((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ~ ~ (((((((( HUGS )))))))

I am so sorry that we (abused ppl) have to go through such inner turmoil & pain.... and all because some one else was selfish and only thought of what they wanted or desired at the moment - - they failed to care for another.

I LOVE YOU and I am saying a PRAYER for YOU..................... (( hug ))


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[Ohlostme]

Oh, xrainstormx, do I know how you feel! If you see my post under Depression - I'm SOOOOOO depressed - you'll see that my problems feel like they've taken over my life, too. It's really important to remember that change DOES happen, eventually. (I'll have to try and remember that, myself!)

Meanwhile, you have all the support in the world from the great people on this forum. You are not alone!!!

fayerody - where did you get that GREAT quote???)

Hang in there. yes you will always know that you were abused but it does get better. Some day you will be sitting there having a good time and suddenly realize that you have not been in any pain for days from the memories of abuse. As for OCD and panic attacks they can be controlled by medication and relaxation techniques so again it does get better. Even the eating disorder can get better if you want it to. Look at all the celebs that have come out of the closet about eating disorders for example the woman that used to play the teen age girl character on growing pains - tracy Gold. now she has survived anerexia with treatment and got married and has a child now to raise. If you really want to heal from all your problems then you WILL heal. it takes deturmination and work like anything else good in life but if you want it and work at it you can have the life you want to have. So hang in there.

As for the boyfriend being enough only you can decide that. a friend once told me A relationship is only as good as the work put into it like learning how to get along with eachother dispite flaws and being willing to bend at times for good relationships involve both sides compromizing and so on. And only the two in that relationship can answer as to if they are willing to put in the work, time and compromising needed for the relationship to last and whther or not they love each other enough to help each other through thick and thin.

Take care.

[xrainstormx]

Thank you. What you said made me think.

[xrainstormx]

It is to long.

[wisewoman]

And what other choices do you have? Therapy is too long. Have you invented that magical cure? Much of the time there is no way out but to do the work and have the pain and learn and grow.