Toughest time of the year

Been a while since I last visted...almost a year...have had no real bouts with depressions...anxiety attacks...yes...but have somewhat learned to control them with breathing and knowing they will pass...my biggest issue is this time of the year living in alaska...very dark now..and horribly cold...this is the time I start thinking about the past...and get scared with the possibility of getting hit with another severe bout of depression...scares the you know what out of me...my bouts leave me in the hospital psyche ward...which is not the place to be...we need better help for mental illneseses ....here and everywhere else...anyways..just wanted to vent...especially with the latest tragedies...

this time for me is difficult too.

i think because of the same things... i'm 25, and this time of year gives me the perfict oppotunity to think how rubbis my life has been up to now, how i have nothing going for me, and how i don't even know what i want to do with my future (oh and i worry about forever being a nobody!). year after year things just get worse for me

Hi Artichack ~ I cannot imagine how it must be in Alaska right now. This may sound funny, but I always watch "Ice Road Truckers" when it comes on, and they're usually in Alaska and it just blows my mind how COLD it gets up there! I live in Michigan, and while our winters aren't as cold as they used to be, it still gets cold --- but NOTHING like you have to contend with!

And you stay dark much longer, correct? I guess it depends on which part of Alaska you're in. But I can totally understand how you'd be scared about depression hitting you. I have clinical depression, so I have it all the time and it will never go away til the day I die. But with medication I do "ok."

Is there anything you'd like to talk about? If there is, feel free to message me, or just post here. It's best to talk it out and get it taken care of before it just "sits there" and festers. Yes, these latest tragedies have been terrible, and are on everyones' minds. But if you have faith in God, you know that those babies are in the hands of God, and are in a better place. It is still extremely sad -- but we have to have faith.

I wish you the very best. Again, if you feel like talking more, just post or message someone you trust. Take care of yourself and God bless. Hugs, Lee