[newtus]

i should of said this here


i want to go back to this bridge i tried to jump off of and finish it. idk what else to say........i feel a dulling calmness. i am mentally tired. very mentally tired.

[Sam2]

Originally Posted by newtus

i should of said this here


i want to go back to this bridge i tried to jump off of and finish it. idk what else to say.......i feel a dulling calmness. i am mentally tired. very mentally tired.

Hi newtus,
I know you are exhausted. Death isn't what you want. Just an end to the pain, fear and exhaustion. If you think that you are truly in danger, please go to the ER, or if you can't do that, call someone to come stay with you. Death is forever and there are no second chances. That may sound good now, but there can be better times ahead.

Having fought depression my whole life, I know how bad it can get. Days of just laying there, unable to move and not caring to. I won't lie and say that I never have problems, because I do frequently, but there are times during which there is hope.

I see that you have been here for a while, which means that you have touched many people's lives. That is really what it is all about. Helping eachother get through this thing called life. If you can't focus on anything good for yourself, focus on the people you are helping find a way out of the darkness. If we don't stay together, there won't be anyone else.

Don't let your mind play tricks on you. If you have to, look at it this way. You can choose to go at any time. Its not like a missed opportunity. You can't choose to come back. Set short term goals for yourself. Getting through one more night, or one more hour. What ever it takes. You aren't alone.

Sam2

[NoCake]

It's not worth it man. I mean you got a life that's yours and nobody else's. Yeah it gets really hard sometimes but it gets easier too. Try finding someone to talk to or the ER like Sam said.

When you avoid this you're gonna think back to this day and realize that you did the right thing by not going through with it.

[newtus]

i almost went. its night but i cant promise myself i wont tomorrow or later in the week.

...i saw someone die today and while everyone was saying life is precious all i could think about was how meaningless life is and everything in it...

people say you only have one time to live. but for what?! for who?! some of the most famous people in the world arent remembered for example. nothing and nobody matters when its all gone. nobody. not money. not love. nothing.

i just want to sell everything i have and die.

[NoCake]

It's not about the destination but the journey. Life is what you make it. You have to try and find things that are meaningful and important to you.

And those important people may not be remembered but they lived their lives doing things that were important to them. That's what matters.