Depress and want to run.

I had surgery on June 30. What I had done I am feeling that I wish I did not have done but I know it is the best thing. Then my mom, sister and her kids in someways do not care about me or my kids. It is how they treated me and my kids I feel this way. I am with someone but I am wishing I was alone and I do not want sex. I feel the blues, hate myself, just want to hide. I can not explain why I feel this way.

What is going on with me. Why do I feel this way. I told my mom thanks for me being so fk up but does she say she is sorry no. She loves my sister more and cares about her more. It is ok for my sister to visit our mom at her place but I can not. And the same goes for my sister with me. Why do they treat me like this. It seems like they care more for my son then my little girl. There is so much more. I hate the days like the nights. I feel like there is no life in me not even for my kids.

Do anyone feel the same way. Or care enough to help or what ever.

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Do anyone feel the same way. Or care enough to help or what ever.

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BOY do any of us feel this way at times (and still do - but with less intensity).... ((((((( hugs ))))))).

You are not alone here and please know that others do understand and do feel your pain.... I have suffered from depression most of my life (age 12 to 39) - but I can say that the last 10 years have been a coming out party.... coming out of sadness and back into my own place of being.
You can do it too, but you must follow the doctors instructions, go to counseling to resolve your past wounds and take any medicines prescribed to you - but most important Take Care of YOU & your BODY!!


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

Thanks. )))))))))))))))))))))))

I do have meds. I just been not taking them. I know I have too. Just like you. I had this depression when I was teen but could not understand at the time why I was feeling this way no one help me no one care to find out why until now I understand why. It is so hard.
I just started back out to work, well volunteering in a grovement office and I loved it until this student pee me off and made me feel like I did not belone or a part of the team and she made me feel like I was dumb. It was bad enough this temp did the same. I am not dumb, I know computers and all that. But why do these people do this and why do some people like to get in your face.

Try looking into the book that I posted in the Rate & Review section called: Feelings Buried Alive Never Die.... it will help you to understand why you are still feeling the way you do, even after so many of years of the past being the past.

Until wounds are resolved they will always be resonated with in you.... some times coming out of the body as depression.


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

thanks. i will look for the book. it is so hard. i just wish it all go away. but thanks.

Hang in there..... it will happen in time - and btw I have been working on my depression (and issues / wounds) for the last ten years, so see it does take time.... in deed it does.


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

thanks. i understand.