dreamless. hopeless. sad.

Growing up I used to have so many dreams and hopes for the future... but as I grew older I stopped dreaming. I guess some people say its like facing reality, but in a sense it isn't. Dreams push you further, they give you a drive, and make life worth living. I don't have any dreams anymore, no hopes for the future, no goal I'm trying to reach. I just live life because I have to, and it really stinks. Of course I have things I think would be awesome to achieve, but at the same time, I know that it will never happen. I wish there was something I would be able to put all my efforts towards. Something to make everything I've done in my life have a purpose.

'Hope is for presidents and dreams are for people who are sleeping.' I wish I had something encouraging to say to you. But, unfortunately I'm in the exact same boat. However, I was just thinking tonight, that for me, it's not going to get any better or worse. And there's almost a strange sense of peace in that. You can just let go & stop caring. Just keep going through the motions trying to make things better for yourself because that's what's expected of you. But just remember it's all pointless either way in the end. So, there's no need to beat yourself up if you aren't successful.

I feel exactly the same way. There was a time that I would dream about getting a new job and other things. But now I feel like the dream for the things that I wanted in life are dead. I feel like I don't have the energy to go and persue new things anymore.

I guess I just think about eternal things now instead of bettering my career and other things.

Sometimes, when you're dealing with a monster like bipolar disorder, having huge, life-encompassing dreams isn't realistic any longer.
But you just change the process, the method ...

Baby steps ... Break things down, attend to the ten thousand steps that go into the giant step. Maybe you accomplish three steps today, on one. Some days, or weeks, none: That's bipolar for you.

But you still climb mountains, build castles ... Pursue your dreams. You nibble away, and take baby steps.

And you never, never, never, ever give up.

Roadie

Im so sorry things seem so bad for you like this. Its very hard to feel positive at times. I used to have big dreams too but as Ive gotten older my dreams are smaller. Just to keep working til I retire, save some money, be able to afford some travel, taking pictures, having friends. Medical when I need it. Independence as long as Im able. Simple things. I hope you feel better soon.

Don't ever let the imagination go, please. It is the "substance dreams are made of". The creativity of the imagination is an important component of who we are.

And as someone said, "you never, never give up". Dreams are what get us through some of the most difficult times of life. They are a big part of the internal life of
each of us. What dry, lifeless figures we would be without dreams.

Pick up a volume of Shakespeare's plays and read one or two for starters. There was
genius which saw as much in dreams as he saw in reality.