[xrainstormx]

Going away to boyfriend's is great. There is nothing to worry about but then I COME HOME!!!!. It is like going back to a %#@&#! hole. I really wish I didn't have to deal with them. Living here makes me feel so low. I am realy tried of thinking to much also. No matter where I am it effects me. My mind never stops thinking and worring. It makes me so tired. It is so hard to change a way of thinking. I am just in a horrbile, horrible mood! I am everyday so, I guess there is nothing new.

how old are you? do you go to school or work? is there a solution, such as a job and moving out? pat

[Christina86]

Hi xrainstormx

Do you live with your family? If you are I can definetely understand the "coming home" bit where you wind up feeling like cr*p for so many different reasons.

*hugs* and feel free to PM me whenever.

[xrainstormx]

Hello, I am 18 years old. I do have a job but I am currently paying for college. My parents are holding money ( it is a long story but to make it short they are ripping me off ). So, as of right now there is no way I can move out.

[Christina86]

Hi again ...

I'm so sorry you're stuck in that situation. I just turned 20, and am paying for my own university as well.

Are you in any sort of counselling? Might want to consider it, I went in not only for the depression, but how to deal with my family!

(Yeah, my family generally makes me feel worthless and unimportant. Big into the guilt trips and whatnot too)

If you ever want to PM me, I mean it ... do it.

PS. Can you look into a scholarship or bursary that might help you to pay for a place to live, or pay for your education so you could get a place to live of your own?

[xrainstormx]

What do you mean a scholarship? They have them for things other than school? I am only going to a community college. I don't know if that matters.

[Christina86]

First, I just want to say that I have a limited scope of knowledge in this area. I also don't want to provide any sort of false hope, maybe none of this is possible. (Sorry, I just wanted to make myself clear.)

Sometimes a university/college will have a bursary or scholarship that includes some sort of financial support to live (in residence as an example, does your college have a residence?)

Also there could be governmental programs (where do you live, country-wise?) or provincial/state/territory programs for students to help with educational costs.

Basically if you can find some source of income/money that will cover either a place to live or your education, it would and could make it easier.

If you live in the USA you are elligable for TAP (tuition Assistance Program) and PELL. They usually award the person enough each semester to pay for books, tuition and so on and there is usually between $400-600 left over depending on the number of classes that you take. You recieve that check of whats left over after the college takes out their fees and things bought in the bookstore on credit against your financial award amount. then you can take that check and cash it and put it towards whatever you want to. you still have time to apply for TAP and PELL for the fall semester coming up in just a few weeks. the colleges financial aid office and the main office can help you do that.

also how about instead of your parents holding your money you open a checking and savings accounts. you can set it up so that a certain amount of your paychecks go into your savings account where that money can accumulate interest for example if you deposit $10.00 and for example if the interest is a dollar a day. at the end of 30 days if you have not taken that money back out of your savings account you will have $40.00 in your account because a dollar a day interest times 30 days is 30 dollars total interest earned. 30 interest plus your 10 already there is 40 dollars.

That way not only will you have the money you need when you need it in your checking account but you will also be saving money by accumulating interest in a savings account.

[xrainstormx]

Thank you. I will look into that.

[xrainstormx]

I have my own and do save. That is not enough though. I have a lot of things to pay for.