I am very bored, lonely, and sad.

I don't think it is possible for me to come out of depression, but my therapist acts so 100% sure that I will just snap out of it and be a totally different person. I feel almost certain that no drug can change who I am. I've tried a couple different meds so far and haven't felt any different (besides side effects).

I wake up each night, very tired, I force myself to go to work. I hate my job and sometimes the people I work with. But I try to remind myself that it isn't their fault. I don't believe that anyone is to blame or at fault for anything ever. I take everything seriously, that includes what other people may find absolutely hysterical. I find nothing funny.

I mean, some people find it funny when the lady at work says she's pregnant again, (she seems to keep getting pregnant), and she says if she has any more she will have to start giving them away.

I do not find it funny. Do you find this funny?

I see the value in life, although it doesn't seem to have a meaning, but another life born in the world is a moment of sadness in my being, whatever that may be, I don't really believe I have a soul.

It makes me infinitely sad to know that people are born, forced into the world without their consent.

It isn't anyone's fault that they are the way they are. I just don't believe we choose anything, from being born to dying.

All that communication feels like to me is two people talking right past each other. Even now, as I write this message, no one will truly understand what I am saying. There are no words that can express how sad I feel. This is why I am lonely every day, even when among others. I hate my life, this miserable existence.

I am sorry that you are gong through this tuff spot in your life.

Generic airheads are often idolised in modern society. We live in a stupid world. The people at my work have vibrant social circles based on each others ditzy train of thought. I call these people 'the FB crowd'. The type that post sad statements on dvds & relationships. 'Awww I u bbs!, plz don't leave me bbs xxxx'.

But hey wat do I know im just a sad introvert!

I wish I could help you to feel good and to see the good in life. Im hoping that you dont give up on meds. Maybe there is a drug that will help pull you out of this well. Sometimes I feel like I am at the bottom of a well and i cant get out and I know that i am the only person who can get me out. If I could help you I would pull you out of the well.

You are correct--"No one can TRULY understand what I am saying", however, I think I can come CLOSE to understanding.

I've been thinking the same thing. I feel that I am a very sensitive person along with being introverted and of course, depressed. I very much wonder why was I born into this world. The question I ask myself is that where was I before I was born? Could my spirit have been in a better place?

Also, why am I in the US? I've read and heard that in southeast Asia introversion is more of the way of life. Here in the US, extroversion is something to be desired. If you are introverted, then you don't fit in very well.

My parents passed away many years ago, and after they passed away I heard that they never wanted to have kids. So not only do I feel that I was born in a world that's seemly not right for me, but that my parents didn't plan on having me! It made sense to me that my parents didn't want to have kids because I always heard how hard it is to have kids from them.

No wonder I feel depressed a lot. Also, depression runs in my family.

I can relate to the taking everything seriously part. Before the depression hit I used humor a lot to fend off sadness. Losing my ability to make jokes made things harder. I still get angry sometimes when I listen to some of the stupid things the radio djs say thats supposed to be humor. The problem was for me that my anger became hate and the hate grew. Pretty soon it was right there at the surface and I exploded more than once. I cant keep that kind of mood and I have to work at changing it.

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I hate my life too. Don't see any reason for being here and things seem to be getting worse. I am so lonely and sad. Don't see any way out.

I feel sorry for all of you that are depressed. Just know it isn't your fault.

To will19, I believe that it is because of the way our country is set up. It was established from the beginning that in order to achieve the "American dream" one must become an entrepreneur. This is why you see all these chain restaurants making big money and little shops closing down. I believe a country's economy plays a big role in the desires that its society comes to have. Our country is filled with examples that show this. And simply being in a certain locale can have an impact on our individual. Perhaps it would be wise to move somewhere else, I would like to move somewhere else.

Also, I am sorry that you feel unwanted. My mom tells me that she wanted me, but that doesn't help any still. I don't believe in love, I don't know that I am even capable of it, all I can see is manipulation. It seems to me that the only reason a person does anything at all is to benefit themselves in some way. For example, I believe my parents had me only so that they would have somebody to take care of them when they get old. I now feel like my whole life is a waste.

Thanks for replying, everyone.

Introverts are seen as negative & people only like positive, thats why introverts don't fit in & thus feel lonely & depressed.

Confidence creates happiness & ur not confident if ur withdrawn. Its important to find direction to build this conference & then everything takes care of itself .