[Hellion]

If I get denied for SSI and appealing it doesn't work, its probably back to the psych ward with me. Not even sure I can avoid that long enough to find out their decision honestly. It's either that or suicide since though my family does not say it I know they are getting more strained financially and so its harder for any of them to really help me out much.....so I gotta figure something out and aside from SSI I don't know what.

I will probably go to the psych ward instead of suicide, but then I am worried about what could potentially become of my mind if I spend longer than 5 days in one of those places. Not so sure it would even be worth continuing after that....what will i have to look forward to, sedatives and insanity? uhh just don't know what to do.....and can't stop worrying about getting denied when it hasn't happened and I just might get approved and then I might be able to make some positive changes in life such as being able to buy healthy food and natural remedies and even maybe build up some hobbies or passions I could be left alone to live my life as best as I can...rather than having my mind tampered with because people are supposed to be 'happy' and conventionally successful.

Is anyone else struggling with this sort of situation or concern?

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Hellion

I will probably go to the psych ward instead of suicide, but then I am worried about what could potentially become of my mind if I spend longer than 5 days in one of those places.

I also struggle with the prospect that a psych ward stay actually might be worse for me in the long run than toughing it out at home. My own long-term psychiatrist has told me he feels I personally would not benefit from a psych ward stay.

This is no easy decision. The psych ward can keep you safe for a time. For some (many?) it can be a positive experience. For others...?

Originally Posted by Hellion

I could be left alone to live my life as best as I can

That's a wonderful, healthy goal. I wish you success!

[ITGirl]

I understand how you feel. I'm considering going back to a psych ward for a bit myself. I just don't know what to do with myself. I have all this time on my hands and I feel I am doing nothing productive. I hate my life. I would say its best to go to a psych ward if you feel u need to though and I wish you luck with your SSI claim. I wish you much luck.