Totally useless

I feel really down today and useless. Is depression supposed to make you really tired? I stayed up all night and woke up at 2:30 and now I am tired. I had a freak out moment. Freak out moment is the nickname for when I break down and cry uncontrollably. I have no one to talk to. My support system sucks. My friends aren't around when I need them, some of them are going through their own problems i don't want to burden them. I do so much for people and get nothing in return which makes me more depressed. There's this one guy i talk to. I stay up all night with him and keep him company while he drives. I put up with his crappy behavior and the fact he ignores my phone calls. He lied to me about being in a relationship. I know i should stop talking to him. I told myself not to let a person make me feel depressed and I do it anyways

I guess I needed to vent and to know I am not alone. I hate being depressed and feeling this way. I don't like feeling tired. I am hoping i can survive the next few days until my therapy appointment.

Hi Lonely,

You're not alone. None of us are, as much as it totally feels like it. I've had many freak out moments since last summer, it has been very hard to manage. Have you ever tried reaching out to the friends that you think you'll burden. When I have, it has opened up new dimensions of our relationships, usually for the best.

You're not alone, I'm thinking about right now, sending you care and love.

RJ

So sorry you are feeling sad. You are not alone. I like you have almost no friends or support system. After 17 years of isolation in my very dysfunctional marriage, I have no idea how to even make new friends or meet new people. I hope you feel better soon.

Lynne Thank you I was in a dysfunctional marriage myself where I was isolated from family and friends for a long time. i've been divorced for 4 years already. I think its been that long. I never realized that until now. Anyways if you need someone to talk to I am here



Thanks Rj for the care and love

Hi Lynne and Lonely,

The best way I have found to make friends in my latest episode of depression, has been doing things I enjoy doing. That way, I meet people who have at least one similar interest. It has been one way.

RJ