I feel like Im falling again, is it in my head?

Well I have not been on here in a while becuase I was doing pretty good, but of course Im not so sure anymore. I'm on something to promote positive mood, but nothing that does too much(pill). I was doing pretty good for say 2 months.

Now I feel like Im alone alot and I feel really loney and well tired. I dont want to do anything anymore. I dont want to talk to anyone about it, yet I want someone to relise "hey she isnt doing too well". I have thoughts of suicde again. I dont want to and feel like I wont do it, but it scares me that I even think about it. I even know what I would do, but I dont want to hurt my friends and family they dont deserve that.

I just feel like Im making problems for myself, yet everything just feels so real. I know Im not alone yet everything seems to far away. I know people care and I want to care about myself, yet I dont FEEL that way.

I dont know what to do. I just want to have the normal teenager problems, but Im not too sure what those are exactly. Everything feels like its an extreme. Really happy or really sad. Or no feeling at all. Does that ever end? Or is that normal? Im just not too sure and I dont know who too ask.

Hi,

I'm in a bit of a similar place, I have been doing quite for a while and I've been slipping for the past week or so, and kind of freaking out about it. Is there any way you can see a professional to assess you mood?

RJ

Hey, Tori. You say you've been taking a pill for help. Maybe you need a higher dosage or a different med. I suggest you call your doctor and tell him/her.

Teenagers can be a bit more touchy because of hormonal changes--like us menopausal women!

I can assure you, though, that things are likely to get better. I am glad you are considering your friends and family. I do that, too. (I am bipolar.)

I may want to try doing both of those things. Maybe going to go talk to someone and higher dosage. I just hate having to do that. Telling my mom and making her worried again. I know it hurts her too but I will. Thanks to you both. Im trying and I wish the best for you two also.

Thanks Tori.

Your Mom may be hurt, but that's a small price for her to pay for what is ultimately your well-being.

Keep us posted,

RJ

If I were your mom, I would want to know how you're doing, and I would move heaven and earth to get you the help that you need. I bet your mom feels the same way.