[Hellion]

I have to wonder why it seems like whenever I get comfortable with my self, or think I am comfortable with myself I seem to f***k up or something in life goes terribly wrong. That is really what it seems to come down too much of the time. The last time it had a lot to do with klonopin and drinking like a dumbass on it but none the less I had been feeling alright about myself up until the point I ended up being really stupid and drinking a crap load at once while on klonopin. Well of course all hell broke lose I freaked the hell out, my friend called my sister to drive me home cause he couldn't deal with it and I managed to exaust myself and go to sleep that night but in the morning I was about ready to off myself so that was my first trip to the psych ward.

But even that still followed that weird pattern, when I attempted suicide at 15 it was after I had finally found some friends and felt I fit in somewhere it didn't last cause I moved back to my old town and lost contact with the friends who did care and ended up being stabbed in the back by a girl I thought to be my best friend. and there's just a number of times where it feels like things are going a little better and I am just getting more comfortable with myself and feeling a little better about life in general and then something terrible happens. Does anyone else have this issue?

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Hellion

and there's just a number of times where it feels like things are going a little better and I am just getting more comfortable with myself and feeling a little better about life in general and then something terrible happens.

Altogether how often has this happened or what is the frequency (every year, quarter, month)? Is your experience in the first paragraph the most recent?

[RJ78]

Hi Hellion,

I find that what matters most in my case isn't so much what happens, but how I interpret it. I know that sometimes something will happen that would totally devastate me, but if I'm not depressed I process it quicker and can move on. I don't know if that helps or not, but this is what came to mind when you asked that questions.

RJ

[Hellion]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Altogether how often has this happened or what is the frequency (every year, quarter, month)? Is your experience in the first paragraph the most recent?

I couldn't say exactly, just quite enough to bother me, and yeah that experience is the most recent.

[Hellion]

Originally Posted by RJ78

Hi Hellion,

I find that what matters most in my case isn't so much what happens, but how I interpret it. I know that sometimes something will happen that would totally devastate me, but if I'm not depressed I process it quicker and can move on. I don't know if that helps or not, but this is what came to mind when you asked that questions.

RJ

Hmm not sure how it feels not to be depressed, I can't seem to get into a position where I can process things quicker or not be hit by them as hard and simply move on. It's probably also the PTSD but yeah I guess I don't see how else i would interpret things.

[hanni]

Story of my life, it's happening right now. when things go well i freak out and before i know it i'm deep in a hole sinking and sinking