Desire

All i want right now is relief. Which doesn't seem like much to ask for but when you get dizzy and then have an array of different thoughts (good and bad) all at the same time... well relief from this just is taking to much time.

SO I"m complaining a bit but after all that I've been through I can't take much more. I had an assignment that I had to do, and I didn't realize the topic until it was too late. And that has effected me. I"m just trying to d-stress from this day, but my mind isn't letting me....

If I"m ranting, I apologize. I just have no one to really talk to right now, and trying to express all of these thoughts doesn't happen very often.

Please now enjoy this vent on stupid neighbors. There's an apartment just below me, with a group of young adults, who play their music at what ever volume, smoke INSIDE the apartment when it's against contract, and have a general disregard to other people in the four plex. I"m sick and tired of them doing what ever they want. I"m at least a little nice, and not playing my many musical instruments in the apartment. (I have but on very select occasions) The hallway that we all share smells, and then the smoke is going through the pipes in the bathroom and smelling up the bathroom. And the apartment management isn't doing much, and trying to talk to them is like pulling teeth. I just have to say one thing to them.... MOVE OUT!!! Let me have a little peace.

Vent on Sisters.
I only have one, but she choose to help out at a dinner, instead of going to my concert. I know it sounds selfish but I just wanted her there for one of the concerts that she didn't have work get in the way. It's always something with her. Using LIFE as an excuses to not support my endeavors. I can't take this anymore. aren't I important as well as others. Can't talk to her much about what's in my head, since it seems like she just has too much going on to even listen, or stop for a minute and just give a hug, or do something kind besides just venting.

I had to get this out. For the little that I can get out.

End vent. For tonight.

I just hope tomorrow is at least a little better. Please!!

Good vent

Got up this morning only to find SNOW, and WIND. Which make anxiety high, and that just doesn't help me to get things done. Which adds more stress and anxiety.

Then there's everything happening in the world, and I just can't stand to see any of the disasters. And that leads me to thoughts I cant really put into words.

SCREAM!!!