[purple1992]

Well outta no where I will feel very happy and excited to do things like have lots of plans and ideas and than outta no where I will get bored of it or I just wont go and do it.
I talk very quickly sometimes, also get annoyed of things or people very easly, I also am very tired alot of the time, I mean i did see a sycologyst but he only said i have part of border line personality disorder and my family thinks I have something else. right now i am on citolapram , quetiapine fumarate I am taking a half a pill of that quetiapine fumarate it just doesnt seem to be helping me I will feel dark and sad or mad outta no where and not care about anyones feelings until I see that I have hurt them than I will start crying and saying I am sorry and say that I dont get why I did that or outta no where someone will be just talking to me and I will start crying, or if someone gets me really upset outta the littelest thing I will pick up something and throw it and yell or I will end up punching the wall and messing up my hand, but right now its just starting to get worse my niece was sleeping in my bed a fell asleep with the popsickle and it melted all over my sheets and blanket and pillows so I freaked out I couldnt control it I wripped the blanket and sheets off and threw them off than I started yelling and my mom came in and yelled at me saying my niece had school the next day I was like I really dont f***ing care and than I dont know I juse couldnt control myself my stepdad came downstairs and was like whats going on and all I remember is me saying heyyyy wanna watch me cut myself and I had scissors in my hands and than he took my dog and shook his head and I dont know i musta just snapped outta it cause i threw the scissors and than my auntie came in my room and held me while i was crying and couldnt breath barely thats how much i was crying but after that I felt soo bad I went and said sorry to everyone in the house. So yes I do get suicidle toughts lately but I havnt done it I just feel like that sometimes you know like noone would care if I was gone. I also seem to forget things alot lately like my boyfriend does not like it at all or me or my sister or mom will get at it cause they will say I just f***ing told you and than sometimes I will be like uhmm no you didnt and than we will keep fighting or most of the time im crying. Also I can not keep a job or get a job since I graduated school cause if I do get a job I will either be too slow and than my boss will tell me or the co workers will tell me and I will start crying or I will start freaking out.

[allimsaying]

Hi purple,

Thats a pretty tough place to be. Im sorry this is going on for you and it sounds very hard to deal with. The number of emotional situations, the frequency, mood swings sounds horrible to endure.

If you are seeing a psychologist, what has he recommended?

Its ok to keep coming back here and telling us more so we can get a better idea of how we might try to help.

[Underhill]

Hello... It sounds like you are going through a rough patch and I can totally relate. I hope things get better for you... although I am in a bind myself, I can recommend that you find a psychologist that you like, that you can talk to once a week. It will probably help. The most important thing is that you like the psychologist, that he or she be someone you feel you can trust.

Another thing that really works if you find yourself spiraling into these states where you do things you later regret is to start counting your breaths. Breathe in, count 1, breathe out, count 2, breathe in, count 3, and so on... do this until you reach 20, then start back up at 1. Keep doing it until you feel calm. Just ignore all other thoughts, all other desires, and just focus on counting your breath.

*hugs*

[purple1992]

Originally Posted by allimsaying

Hi purple,

Thats a pretty tough place to be. Im sorry this is going on for you and it sounds very hard to deal with. The number of emotional situations, the frequency, mood swings sounds horrible to endure.

If you are seeing a psychologist, what has he recommended?

Its ok to keep coming back here and telling us more so we can get a better idea of how we might try to help.

hey yes it is pretty rough I am going crazy most of the time and
i always end up putting myself down always blaiming myself for things
or others. thanks very much for helping and hes put me on ouetiapine fumarate 25 mg but it makes me very tired and i also am taking citolapram
and he says i have part borderline personality disorder when my family thinks its something worse or w.e

[purple1992]

Originally Posted by Underhill

Hello... It sounds like you are going through a rough patch and I can totally relate. I hope things get better for you... although I am in a bind myself, I can recommend that you find a psychologist that you like, that you can talk to once a week. It will probably help. The most important thing is that you like the psychologist, that he or she be someone you feel you can trust.

Another thing that really works if you find yourself spiraling into these states where you do things you later regret is to start counting your breaths. Breathe in, count 1, breathe out, count 2, breathe in, count 3, and so on... do this until you reach 20, then start back up at 1. Keep doing it until you feel calm. Just ignore all other thoughts, all other desires, and just focus on counting your breath.

*hugs*

Yes thats exactly what I was thinking to and so is my bf and family I mean my bf just went and seen one not too long ago and he said he felt that he could just keep talking and me noo I dont feel that way at all with mine I feel that he isnt even listening to me or anything it just makes me feel eerrghh you know.. that breathing thing though I think I am going to try it next time I mean try to cause sometimes like I said I just can't control myself and that does sound horable but thats how its been for about a while I feel that im just getting worse not better.