I feel like im in limbo. days go by without me really noticing..sometimes i dont even know what day of the week it is. obviously i have no friends and not much of a family nor love of any kind, and my hobbies are boring.

i guess i can be thankful for not suffering all the time..which im not(at the moment). im just like a robot searching for meaning to keep going.

i dont know if i should just hang myself really..not out of depression but just reason. what should i do?

and another question: what do you live for?

[kim24]

I feel this way right now too. I'm trying to find music I can enjoy (that isn't sad/depressing either!), and remind myself of what I might enjoy, like tea, food. Or sometimes going for a walk, whether I really feel like it or not can help me feel better.

It sounds like you are very depressed...have you been diagnosed by a medical professional with major clinical depression, bipolar disorder, or something else? I am sorry that you are suffering so - it sounds like you have reached a point where the outside world feels like a void and that life seems pointless, etc. That is a very, very hard place to be in and I empathize with you.

Good news. I think you can pull out of this. I've been there and I have done so with the help of medical treatment, therapy, and some support. (Most of my family is deceased but please reach out to a local support group, a friend, etc.)

I no longer consider suicide an option because my partner and my daughter love me very much - I don't want to cause them pain. Also, I know that when I am depressed it will pass at some point ... and when it does, I want to reengage in life.

Take care, please see a doctor for evaluation ...

[avlady]

Yes See a doc and T if it's so bad your contemplating killing yourself!!!!!For some reason you're not happy,we can't be all the time, maybe you're just going through a phase that will pass but still seek advice, you've done that already here

[optimize990h]

Originally Posted by eonblue12

I feel like im in limbo. days go by without me really noticing..sometimes i dont even know what day of the week it is. obviously i have no friends and not much of a family nor love of any kind, and my hobbies are boring.

i guess i can be thankful for not suffering all the time..which im not(at the moment). im just like a robot searching for meaning to keep going.

i dont know if i should just hang myself really..not out of depression but just reason. what should i do?

and another question: what do you live for?

while you are waiting for a therapist appointment, you can try some distractions like games here at PC, exercises, meditation, expressing yourself here in written form or go to the chat room. I organize my week with goals every day to give some structure.

I guess right now I live because I am patient enough to continue till the end of story and I have a couple of pets who depend on me.

I find time goes fast when I am doing something that interests me.