[GirlOfManyFaces]

Ever since the traumatic events I haven't been myself. And I thought maybe if a pretend I'm ok, then I will be fine. But it didn't work. I feel worse.

I don't want to eat. I'm afraid to sleep because I will have nightmares. I can't focus or work. I Try not to SI, but I do it anyway. I want to die but I'm not really suicidal, I just don't feel needed in life. My dad is cruel, any curse word out there could describe him perfectly. My mother isn't understanding AT ALL. And my sister is 3 hours away from me. And I'm all alone. I don't have any friends outside of PC. And Im still pretty new to my school. I'm lost and lonely and I don't know what to do. I feel dead inside. And I have more phobias than you could count. I don't know how do deal with those either...

I just need support...

[optimize990h]

[IHope your cloud of feeling bad will go away quickly GOMF. I was hoping things were gradually getting better. Some other members may be along to give you.[/I]

[lonelyemotionalgirl]

I know how you feel, and I am always here for you.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by GirlOfManyFaces

I thought maybe if a pretend I'm ok, then I will be fine. But it didn't work. I feel worse.

Ah, yes. "Fake it until you make it." I've been told that. In the long run it didn't work for me. It hasn't worked for you. Maybe it works for some; more power to them.

GirlOfManyFaces, do you feel safe at home?

[GirlOfManyFaces]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Ah, yes. "Fake it until you make it." I've been told that. In the long run it didn't work for me. It hasn't worked for you. Maybe it works for some; more power to them.

GirlOfManyFaces, do you feel safe at home?

Sometimes, why does that matter?

[RJ78]

Hi, are you able to take any steps to build a support system, you know, make some friends? So many people out there suffer from depression, maybe you could have the type of discussions you have on PC with someone? I've joined a depression support group, that has been nice.

RJ

[GirlOfManyFaces]

Originally Posted by RJ78

Hi, are you able to take any steps to build a support system, you know, make some friends? So many people out there suffer from depression, maybe you could have the type of discussions you have on PC with someone? I've joined a depression support group, that has been nice.

RJ

I don't have the option of making friends or joining a group. PC is all I have. And yet I'm still depressed and alone

[RJ78]

Well, PC is definitely better than no PC. What do you mean though by not having the option to make friends? What is hindering your attempts?

RJ

[GirlOfManyFaces]

Originally Posted by RJ78

Well, PC is definitely better than no PC. What do you mean though by not having the option to make friends? What is hindering your attempts?

RJ

I'm not around people. So I don't have people to be friends with. I don't have the option

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by GirlOfManyFaces

My dad is cruel...

This concerns me. If you are spending the majority of your emotional resources on defending your person and psyche from family members, you have few remaining resources to heal and move forward.

[GirlOfManyFaces]

Originally Posted by Rohag

This concerns me. If you are spending the majority of your emotional resources on defending your person and psyche from family members, you have few remaining resources to heal and move forward.

I know. It makes it hard to more forward when I have to hold myself back... But don't worry about him. I'll be fine...