[qwerty9191]

A few months ago, I confessed to my therapist that I was having suicidal thoughts, soon I felt better and I did not have any thoughts like that again. For the past few weeks, I was having suicidal thoughts again, I did not know the reason, why I am having such thoughts and I really could not take it.

My last session with my therapist, I shared with her how good I felt about life. I have a session coming up soon, I do not have the confidence to tell her how I feel, I am afraid if she would think I am telling this for fun or just attracting attention ?
I am just very confused .

[herethennow]

i think you should be honest about your feelings. we all have our goods, and then we have our bad falls. i think your T should expect that falls and not judge you.

hope things get better

[Sam2]

I agree with herethennow. Your therapist has seen enough patients to know that depression and other emotional illnesses have ups and downs. Clinical depression is different than depression that follows a specific incident. For instance, if you were depressed because your dog ran away, if you found him again, your depression would immediately lift. When you are clinically depressed, often there isn't just one reason, and other times its due to a chemical imbalance. That isn't going to just disappear overnight, and your therapist knows that.

Don't be embarrassed or ashamed to tell your therapist that things have changed and you are feeling really bad again. Without that information, her hands are tied. She would probably pick up the fact that something was wrong by your body language, but telling her will save time. Therapists can usually tell if their patients are just looking for attention. That can be a whole other kind of problem in itself. Be upfront with her. I wish you luck. Feel better.

Sam2

[Sabra]

Good evening,

Please be honest with your therapist, no matter how you feel. Try not to worry about what she will think about you. If you can't be honest, you may start to resent her for not "getting" how you really feel. Therapy is a relationship and when you don't tell the truth it puts you both of at a disadvantage.

Treat yoursrlf with kindness.

Sabra