[sammi]

i'm missing a friend today. i started thinking about him late last night. You see we use to be really close earlier in this year. We both were going through hard times. I guess in away we both needed each other. He was the person that i knew i could call at 3 in the morning if I needed someone.

One night though in June we did something we shouldn't have done. We both agreed that we'd just leave it at that. But its been over a month and i haven't heard from him at all.

i saw him just the other day and he wasn't the same. I miss him, but i miss the person he was, not the one i saw just a while ago.

Its harder then i thought it would be. I don't really have a lot of close friends. He was the first person i could really share everything with. HE did the same with me. ( or at least i thought he did)

We took care of each other, and now i'm once again on my own. I feel strange now trying to pick up the phone. I'm figuring why would he want to listen to my problems? I'm doubting everything we had.

I feel horrbile, i never thought i'd lose him, but i think i already have.

[Frozen_Heart]

((((hugs))))

Maybe the 'something' you did that you shouldn't have complicated things for him and he's not able to communicate it. I hope that you somehow find closure or re-open this relationship.

hes probably reached a stage in his life where he needs a little bit of space. he obvioulsy cares alot about you, and its probably upsetting him how things are going. but dont doubt what you had, it sounds genuine, you cant fake things like that.

maybe if you contacted him and ask him how hes feeling right now, see if he wants to open to you, if he doesnt dont take it personally. but if he does let him, and then you can open up to him. ask him if he needs space, and if he does, tell him you will be waiting for him for when he needs you again.. it sounds like he just needs some space, but to know a freind will be waiting for him.

good luck, and try not to tale it personally sammi, we all get periods of unhappiness where we just need to be alone. it helps.

[damajdancer]

(((((( hugs )))))))
im sure that all you guys need is a break, and when you get back to the way it was, it will be 10 times better. I have my fingers crossed for you guys. I think everything will work out, once a friend always a friend.
I hope you feel better!
-Megan-