[paradiso2340]

Hi all,

I was wondering if any of you feel that you really can't identify your own self-loathing and why you feel you don't like yourself. Prior to my onset of depression I feel like I enjoyed myself and liked who I was for the most part. As I am going through this depression now I just don't feel comfortable in my own skin, I feel like something is wrong with me, but I can't identify many tangible things I don't really like about myself. I feel like I have been possessed by some bad thing, but I know it's all coming from me. Sometimes I feel like I need to escape my self which is a horribly frightening feeling. Does anyone else have a similar experience in that prior to the depression you felt content with yourself, but after its onset you feel like a bad person, but can really identify where these feelings are coming from?

[CharactorAssassin]

Do we have depression initially because we believe a part of us is missing. Or in other words we put a substance in us and now that we do not have it we are suffering from withdrawal or discontinuation syndrome. In this way we now have an addiction. If you put the substance back in you will have the same cycle of addiction. The withdrawal effect is depression. Now we need to replace the substance with something else. When it feels like a part of us is missing, an illusion that we are not whole persons. We are unconscious that we are not complete without the substance so we may react and begin to hate ourselves. When we feel complete we love ourselves again.

[adam_k]

It may be the depression or other events in my life but I generally don't like myself. I often feel guilty and like I should be punished. Maybe it is the depression, or could be something else. I also have a history of self harm. When I am not feeling depressed I find it easier to like myself and be kind to myself. When I feel depressed I feel worthless and I often feel like I should punish myself for feeling bad.

My rational thinking tells me that is not the case and I don't deserve to be punished for having depression. It feels like I am disconnected sometimes. I have intense emotions that seams out of line with what a person should feel. I may also have borderline personality disorder, so maybe some of the self loathing is from that.

One of the criteria for depression is feeling of worthlessness or inapporiate feelings of guilt. This is usually without reason.

[CharactorAssassin]

I feel this way everyday. But I also feel its because something is missing.
I will sometimes even hit myself when i think I have not done good enough.
Past mistakes.