[Ultra Darkness]

I don't understand it. I've felt more depressed in the last several weeks than I have in months. Every time I get better, it's worse when I relapse again.
I don't want to eat. My brother is mad at me for something I have no control over. My dreams are vivid and depressing. My family gives off so much negative energy that I feel smothered.

Why am I so empty? I feel almost good about myself, but my life...

[optimize990h]

It is difficult to find the place where your mind can be at and not have days when things are not good. I find it is painfully slow and the days do not move as fast as the pace in a movie where days are minutes or less. So, a painfully amount of endurance and patience is needed to get better days to last longer. Sometimes a T helps in that a goal focused treatment plan provides direction.

But as you know PC members can be helpful as well for they have often walked in the steps you are going through. Focus on what will give you the foundation to carry on in an efficient manner so no guilt is spilt upon perceived wasted time.

Those are just my thoughts, take what you like and leave the rest behind.

[*woundedhealer*]

Ultra darkness,

I too am having a hard time the last few weeks.
I'm gonna whine a minute...
I hate that ordinary tasks take a massive amount of energy. I have to push myself everyday to find some reason to get thru the day.

I'm looking forward to the time I can again be concerned with what God wants from my days.
When I'm down, I'm SOOO selfish. But, I'm troubleshooter. I can't help the way I feel, and if I have a problem, I tend to be preoccupied with it until I can find a solution, or it takes care of itself.


woundedhealer7

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