Change in mood..

I need some support.. Two weeks ago i became very hyper and happy and over excited, i hardly slept anyway that carried on till last Saturday, my mood crashed.. I hardly cry cos i was sexually abused as a child and was told not to cry or i get punished. I have taken this on to adult hood anyway since Saturday i been emotional and just crying.. I am still hardly sleeping, I am feeling very low, the voices in my head are telling i am a bad person and should be killed, they are telling me to kill myself, the way i feel right now i would quite easily do that, but i am trying to fight it but i just feel like a complete wreck..

Can i have some support and hugs please?

Hi Twister,

How are you doing now? Im not sure what kind of support to give. Did you call a doctor?

In my opinion you need to see someone NOW. If nothing else, go to an emergency room. There you can be evaluated short term and keep safe. Call the suicide help line and just talk. Get medical help. You CAN be helped. there are medications and treatments and people on this forum.
When you feel bad urges procrastinate. Tell yourself that you won't do anything until tomorrow.
Please see someone.
I'm pulling for you.