[julie234332]

Hi everyone. Recently I have felt depressed and i have noticed numbness in my fingers/hands, but without pain. It is almost like I am grossed out that I am depressed and this is my reaction. I can't really explain it. Like you know how someone may see or hear something disgusting/traumatizing and feel weak/numb? i feel the same about my depression. I also think I might be colder than usual because when I am with a friend i say it is cold, and she usually says that it is not that cold. I just feel empty, even in a crowded room with many people. I am also sensitive to things that have never bothered me before. For example, I am a 19 year old college student and I live in a dorm. Tonight I wouldn't go into the shower unless the girl who was in the bathroom left because she was humming. I never really cared that much about other people humming before. Have these things happened to u? Can you please explain? Thanks.

[healingme4me]

Originally Posted by julie234332

Hi everyone. Recently I have felt depressed and i have noticed numbness in my fingers/hands, but without pain. It is almost like I am grossed out that I am depressed and this is my reaction. I can't really explain it. Like you know how someone may see or hear something disgusting/traumatizing and feel weak/numb? i feel the same about my depression. I also think I might be colder than usual because when I am with a friend i say it is cold, and she usually says that it is not that cold. I just feel empty, even in a crowded room with many people. I am also sensitive to things that have never bothered me before. For example, I am a 19 year old college student and I live in a dorm. Tonight I wouldn't go into the shower unless the girl who was in the bathroom left because she was humming. I never really cared that much about other people humming before. Have these things happened to u? Can you please explain? Thanks.

I was a 19 year old college student once, and I will say, those first couple of years were some of the toughest years, emotionally, in my life.
Are you really colder than the usual, or was your friends' statement, in a way, a little less than supportive, meaning, she didn't ask if you were alright, instead insisted, it's not cold, it's you?
Maybe the cold that you feel is symbolic of how you are feeling towards those you are surrounded by? Just a thought, from this side of having once been a freshman. After all, things that you weren't sensitive to, you are now becoming sensitive too, i.e., humming.

Hang in there, keep posting.

[dg1983]

Hi there Julie,

I can agree that living in a dorm has been a very stressful experience. When you say that you didn't want to shower because someone was humming, was it because it was too loud, or was something about it irritating you? If so, I can attest to that---I am very sensitive to certain things, when I am depressed, I get extremely irritable--loud voices or people humming behind me piss me off...

The feeling empty despite being in a crowded room is also normal...I've been there many times.

Have you been seeking any sort of support at your school? I know that some schools have free or affordable counselling. I suggest that you try it out, because personally, I wish that I had used it more often when I was in school. Please try it if you haven't And if you need to talk, you can message me.

[julie234332]

It was just because she was humming. she was not even loud. And I don't dislike the girl either. I barely know her, but she seems nice. This is why i feel bad about having terrible thoughts about people I barely know and seem nice. Even though I don't show it much, I have started to dislike people. Especially when they sit too close to me, I give them a look. Anyways, on a positive note, I am going to a therapist off campus this week. I was on the wait list for college counseling and it is not guaranteed that I would get a weekly appointment, so I would rather not waste time. And this monday, I am seeing a psychiatrist on campus, who will probably prescribe me meds. I don't want my grades to suffer just because I am depressed because it is not a good indicator of the student I usually am.