[crepesaredelicious]

I felt kind of broken today. My parents were arguing about my grades, and got frustrated, taking about me like I wasn't even in the room (even though i was). And i just stopped smiling. I didn't feel i needed to be happy anymore or to even fake that i was happy. Because nothing ever goes right for me. It just seems that as time goes by, i just keep getting sadder and sadder, and that nothing will be able to help me.

[Pierro]

Hello, Have you tried to be open about your feelings, they are most probably arguing about the best way to deal with things.I there anybody at your school you can talk to because they might be able to help to you. I know when things aren't going well we feel that everyone is against us. Please let me know how you got on and you can pm me anytime. Best Wishes.

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, Crepesaredelicious.

Originally Posted by crepesaredelicious

My parents were arguing about my grades, and got frustrated, taking about me like I wasn't even in the room (even though i was).

That would make me feel broken. Do your parents do that often?

[Patandorf]

crepesaredelicious - I know how that feels. I had to grow up two years behind the wake of A's and outgoing standards my sister left. Although my parents didn't arguer literally, they might as well have been. I had to grow up under expectations that I would be as good as her and active as her; I always fell short, a lot of the time very short. When my parents leaned about my grades being B / C+ range they didn't have to arguer, I felt their disappointment through their silence. Just giving my grades to them, I knew what was coming, all the time it would be the same. It was unbearable for my parents to go over my grades and say nothing; it eventually got to the point where I handed it to them and ran to my room.

No matter what I did, I could never, shake the feeling of sadness that is now stuck to stay. I wish years ago, as early as 1999 when I was 8/9, I spoke up. I truly believe if I spoke up about how I was feeling; the unbearable sadness that took over, the fake smile I put on every day to survive; I wish I spoke up, It could be different than how far I'm willing to fall now. I'm now 22, going into my 5th year of college, 4th in Architecture school come this fall; and now I'm paying dearly for that choice. This past spring semester just ended and this sadness was the first semester that I just couldn't keep it together. Instead of getting the A I so rightly deserve, I'm now getting B-, B+ and an incomplete. I feel like such a disappointment that I couldn't and now I get to go home and tell my parents this and just be overwhelmed with sadness because of it. Father Time keeps sweeping me under the rug and I just can't really take much of this anymore and something more than what I'm already seeking, needs to be done.

I wish I was younger and spoke up. Please go talk to the guidance counselor at your school or if you don't have one, the nurse's office will also listen. If you don't want your parents knowing, just tell them that, the reasoning behind it, and that (if this is the case) it will just make things worse if "You" tell them "Right now".

I don't know your full story or if even what I said is any good to you, but this next line will.

Don't let this drag on, it will only have a bad/undesirable outcome.

I wish this site existed when I was much younger and found it, things could be much different and I wouldn't be in the very bad emotional spot I'm in at the moment.