[jacq10]

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I just want to scream right now! I am so angry and I don’t even know why. It just like built up as I was driving home. But this is different anger right now. I physically feel it in my chest like it’s dying to come out of me in one form or another. I’m angry at my mom because she can be such a ***** sometimes. She gets so upset and angry and takes it all out on me! I’m angry because I didn’t talk to my T on the phone the other day, and I’m angry because I want to talk to my housemaster so badly, but I can’t, and she hasn’t answered my email yet… and lately I’m just so damn impatient!!! Right now I just seem angry at the world. I’m angry for having to be here, I’m angry because certain people aren’t physically in my life right now … I’m angry because I’m so god damn alone right now and theres nothing I can do about it. Theres nothing I can do about my stupid family either, and I just want to scream, or cry, or hurt something. I just hope its not myself.

jacq, calm down abit...breathe slowly, in....then out...

it sounds to me as if your currnet life is frustrating you, a feeling all too common in myself. life can be frustrating at the best of times. there will always be things that are sent to try us, and its best if we let it go past us without worrying about it. try not to worry about things you cannot control. the fact your housemaster hasnt replied isnt your problem. the fact your mum is winding you up isnt your problem. so just distance yourself from these events and focus on what positives you have in life. Easier said than done, i know...but it is possible, trust me.

the fact that you feel lonely is hard. im there right now too. are you prepared to sort it out though? are you prepared to look for that someone special? is so, dont be frustrated because you are prepared to sort it out. and if your not prepared, well then it shouldnt bother you.

the best cure for the anger you feel is to vent it regularly, not to let it build up until it all explodes at once. things seem worse when you do that and thats not a healthy thing to do. but we do all do it sometimes.

if ever you feel pent up or frustrated about something, just come here to PC, and let it out, or learn to express your feelings to those who cause them, but in a positive way (so thats not shouting or getting abusive etc), it is possible and you will no doubt learn to do it. as long as people know what is upsetting you, they have the chance to change it, and if they dont, well why worry, its not worth it...see what i mean??

take care and try to relax. listen to music, watch a film, go for a walk, or read a book...try to do something that stimulates your mind, it doesn thave to be much, even if its a spot of cleaning. it all helps.

speak soon jacq10, and you knwo where i am if you should need me.

simon