How are you going to make it thru the day?

I'm just wondering...how will you go thru the day today, how will you make it? I opened my eyes again this morning, starting crying right off and thought oh no, another day. How am I going to do this one. I don't want to. I can't.

How will you?

xxx

Grace

I'll do homework, go grocery shopping, and enjoy the sound of the rain, though I'd rather be gardening.

Is there anything you can do to be kind to yourself?

You don't have to think about getting through the whole day. Take it one minute at a time. Where are you right now and what are you doing? Are you warm enough, comfortable enough, etc.? Is the moment that you are in tolerable? You can deal with the ones that follow as they come.

I know how you feel my friend. It takes so much energy to get up let alone do all the housework and homework with the kids. I try to walk in the morning but, everything takes so much energy, I have to lie down in between these periods.That's not normal is it! Take care

I wish I had a good answer for you, myself, and others who are woke up with that demon called depression invading our space. Maybe I'll read for a while, and if I'm lucky I'll be able to concentrate on the words and storyline of the book. More often than not, I'll sit in my comfortable chair looking at the pages of the book, while my brain absorbs only small segments of the story. Sometimes I'll start reading a book, or watching a movie and I'd swear I've only been reading or watching the movie for half an hour at most, but I'll look at the clock, and find that I've been sitting in the same spot for several hours while my brain, navigated by depression and anxiety, has taken me through those dark tunnels, and deep holes without my consent. I took zoloft several years ago for a short time, and it helped a little, but I don't have medical insurance, or even a real job. Using over the counter meds, and logging onto various sites that address depression issues is the best I can do.

Sorry Gracez, I wish I had the words and phrases to motivate you to a positive place. I'm not a good friend to myself or anyone else. So sorry.

When I've been so low I can't even get absorbed in anything, I forced myself to do NOTHING but breathe. Not even engage with thoughts, or if I did, just let them go when I noticed it. Turns out that's a kind of meditation. Anyway, it was a relief and often led to a concentration of energy to do some little thing. Not a panacea, but works sometimes.

((((((( Gracez )))))))

I like Rapunzels' answer. Take good care dear person

Today I talked to my "spiritual older sister" :-)

(nobody from pc )

Understood. I feel the same, with is being Mother's Day (blah) and it's almost too bright and sunny outside. Plus I currently have a few physical issues that are causing me to be uncomfortable...it's just miserable. A friend I can talk to will be around at least by tom (he is out of town) and another one is doing Mother's Day stuff. The stupid web site I file my unemployment on is down, which is causing me all sorts of stress about money issues. I was much better off asleep.
Hugs to everyone else painfully taking it second by second.

Hi everyone, thanks for all of your replies. Rather than flood with messages, can I just reply to everyone here. I haven't been able to reply till much later today, though I read your responses earlier. I've been too overwhelmed to do much more than cry or kind of yell out help.

H3rmit, - I don't find ways to "be kind to myself" but I liked your suggestion. I know what you mean. It's just I don't relate to that anymore, just as I don't enjoy a single thing. I do get myself to try breathing, sometimes. Sometimes it works. Sometimes I can't do what I tell myself to do. It was good to hear what you are up to. Thanks for telling me. I used to love gardening, and walking, and everything really. Just generally felt joyful for no special reason, not because I was doing anything in particular.

Rapunzel - thanks for giving that suggestion of minute by minute and are you comfortable right now. More upset comes, too true, from thinking how the rest of the day and week is going to miserable. I can't get happy with even how a moment is going. But I found a couple points during the day I was really hot, and I became a little less grumpy when I cooled myself down by putting on a fan. I felt too upset and nauseous to eat most the day. You know that gagging because you're crying so much reaction? I think if you were all here though, I'd cook a big meal for you.

Pierro - you're always mentioning your kids and husband, and I'm amazed because it seems like you're always taking care of them. Ya, everything is totally draining when there's no good mental energy. I'm glad you rest in between and try to do all these things. It's an inspiration to me. Maybe I need to make a have you walked today challenge or check in with some other people. Only time I exercise now is if I must get somewhere, my only transportation is bicycling. And it's very hot now where I'm living, so it's not too good to go out in the day.

Fading99- thanks for your answer. It was helpful, everyone's is. It's just good to talk together. I haven't talked with you before, some of the others here I have since I joined PC. I don't have insurance or a real job either, so I can relate a bit. I'm always trying to piece things together which is frustrating. What seems to work best for me is a good book or movie, if I can zone out. But I dislike that I have to spend so much zoning out. It doesn't feel like any kind of life. And sometimes I can't. In the mornings I wake up too early, crying, often scared, and then it's actually effort to get myself to a book to zone out. I try reading for hours, and have to actually take breaks in between pages sometimes, because I can't focus on the zone out. I also tried Zoloft and Celexa, and now am trying Prozac. Still hoping an SSRI could help.

Fuzzybear- lots of love. I'm glad you talked to her today. You've mentioned her to me before. That's really nice you both have this connection. Thank you for responding!

sortafairytale - thanks for responding. Really good to hear from you. Gosh I hope the physical and unemployment pain reduce soon. It's no fun having these extra complications and hoops on top of what we already deal with. I'm not a mother or anything, but it is a difficult day for so many of course. Hang in there. I'm glad that you can visit this friend of yours tomorrow. Thinking of you

Hugs to everyone. Thanks for all of your support. I hope this day ends soon.

I am not crying outside, but I think inside I am.
I just try to eat and then sleep again, or try to do something that put my mind off a while.

minute by minute
the only way to make it through

I will tuck the covers around me and close my eyes then let the pills take me to sleep just like every other monday. There is nothing else to it.

the truth is, you just make it through. Cause you're stronger than you feel like. Even when you feel at your weakest, you're still strong enough to make it. Sometimes our perception of things can trick us into believing, that we can't make it through. But we can. and that's the beauty of our selves.

I try to keep busy which isn't hard as I' moving soon into
a new apartment.
When I take a break I go online & go visit a pretty good website
YouTube is good.
I use distraction.
For me I love those pet videos.
Then I blog a lot on Wordpress.com that gets me thru the day.
Get out of the house & take a walk.
Or
Go see a movie.
Do something that will get your mind off of your depression.
Its very hard as I struggle with depression a lot.

I agree with this approach.

I find no pleasure that there are others out there that feel as i do. I wonder what it would be like to open my eyes in the morning and welcome the day to what it has to offer instead of opening my eyes and thinking **** i woke up. If anyone could offer advice as to how and why you should continue that way i would appreciate it. The only reason i am here is who would take care of my dog.

I am going to work. I will be happy that I have work. I will be nice to my boss and all my customers. When I start to get mad, I'll tell myself to calm down, its not worth it. Im going to enjoy the scenery that rolls by, the birds flying are always my favorite, sometimes a flock of pigeons, sometimes a solitary hawk. I'll be grateful for the good weather, I'll enjoy the cooling rain even though it splashes on my window and makes it hard to see. I'll have compassion for everyone I meet. I'll try to brighten at least one persons day. I'll be optimistic. It always works. Bless everyone on this thread.

Hi 1320, I don't have advice yet, because I have that same feeling myself every morning when I wake up, no dog to take care of, and no success in transforming that feeling.
Take care

Hi AllImSaying, that's wonderful. Wish I were able to do that. I used to feel optimistic and happy for no reason, but I just don't experience this anymore. Have a good day and thanks

Gracez

Hi gracez

Its hardly for no reason. Of course you dont know me so you wouldnt know that my dad recently passed away, or that my step mom, who abused me physically and mentally growing up, decided it was important to disclude not only me, but my older sister from the obituary out of spite when my sister has never done anything against her, or that my mom has been crippled almost all my life, or that my son will no longer speak to me and hasnt in 17 years because my ex wife chose to tell him Im crazy. You dont know that Ive been homeless, penniless, addicted, drawn out, run over, jailed, and flattened by life because all you see is a smile. I dont talk about my issues, theyre mostly in the past and there are people here suffering now who need the space and attention. Ive come to PC to return some of the support Ive been given when I needed it. You dont know all those things about me so you wouldnt understand how good it feels to finally be able to smile genuinely and function.

Equally, I dont know anything about you, but I do know how depression darkens our lives and steals our joy and our ability to connect and feel anything besides sorrow and loss. I know how it makes us jealous, angry, envious of those who seem to have more than we do. I know I never knew what was really going on for the people I thought were so happy. I know sometimes I thought they were faking it too. I only wanted to add to the thread. It looked like a place where people could come and share their strengths as well as their problems. Im grateful that you started it and it seems to be helping many.

I dont know what your reason might be someday to smile and be happy, I only know that if Im here, I'll be there, cheering you on and beaming with joy for you.

Tc

I know how you feel but I did like the answer of taking the moments as they come. Those of us with depression worry more than others and we worrry how we will make it through the day. I am trying to just concentrate on the moment though it is hard.

I disappear into my head. I lock my doors and retreat from the world, blinds closed, incense burning away.

I'd like to work but can't. I can't deal with the stress of interacting with other people, especially in a work environment. Too much discord. Too loud and too chaotic.

What I need now is quiet order.

I can't cry anymore. I feel dead.

I'll probably get through the day like I always do. I'll read or spend time with my animals or something. Tomorrow I'm drinking. That'll be the highlight of my week.

Like so many others said minute by minute. I like what Rap said.
Good luck to you. I hope things get alittle better.

minute by minute for me also
sending warmth