[1Buster]

Even when I decide to start paying attention to my problems I can't pay attention.

I finally got all of my diagnosis paperwork from the LCSW who worked with me last fall. We'd talked a lot in the 3 sessions and I thought I had: 1) Depression 2) ADHD (we already knew that). Not so fast, my son!

ADHD - check. Depression - not quite. Her papers say Disthymia (mild Depression, but all the friggin' time and, like, forever). G.A.D.?! - How'd I miss that in all our talk! Pretty gard-darn obvious now.

So who has been diagnosed with Disthymia vs. MDD? And are you lucky enough to have bouts of "Double-Depression" - Disthymia with MDD episodes every so often? How the **ck do you deal with this **it?!

Just managed to break another door in my house by kicking it open too hard just because .... Now kind of stressed about when the wife sees it + I have to fix that **it and I really don't have the energy these days to do much other than type out these things to you guys.

[Leed]

LOL ~ Generalized Douchebaggery???? You're a RIOT!!! I laughed outloud! Thanks for that -- I needed a good laugh.

Well, I got diagnosed with Clinical depression, and that was that. So they stuck me on meds and that was 40 years ago. I've been taking them ever since and doing great (most of the time). I went thru therapy and had to go back a few times, but other than that, I've done quite well !!

I wouldn't worry about the #$%# door. Heck, a guy ought to be able to break a door every once in awhile. What's the big deal? So what if you've broken doors before? It's better than wife-beating, right?

Take care my friend, and God bless. Hugs, Lee

[Rohag]

Hello, 1Buster. My regrets for the door.

Once upon a time a clinician evaluating me reckoned I suffer from both MDD and dysthymia. MDD, however, is the one engraved (as "in stone") upon my official diagnoses.

I deal with it or them poorly.

[1Buster]

The "douchebaggery" is a self-diagnosis based a lot on how my wife reacts to my brilliant sense of humor. I'm not sure it's correct, though, since it quite often mimics the symptoms of "dickheadedness" - also a very plausible condition in my case.

BTW, the door is not nearly as big a deal as it felt last night. Plus, I can just blame it on the kids - they break ***t around here all the time.

Originally Posted by 1Buster

Even when I decide to start paying attention to my problems I can't pay attention.

I finally got all of my diagnosis paperwork from the LCSW who worked with me last fall. We'd talked a lot in the 3 sessions and I thought I had: 1) Depression 2) ADHD (we already knew that). Not so fast, my son!

ADHD - check. Depression - not quite. Her papers say Disthymia (mild Depression, but all the friggin' time and, like, forever). G.A.D.?! - How'd I miss that in all our talk! Pretty gard-darn obvious now.

So who has been diagnosed with Disthymia vs. MDD? And are you lucky enough to have bouts of "Double-Depression" - Disthymia with MDD episodes every so often? How the **ck do you deal with this **it?!

Just managed to break another door in my house by kicking it open too hard just because .... Now kind of stressed about when the wife sees it + I have to fix that **it and I really don't have the energy these days to do much other than type out these things to you guys.

OMG, that sucks....
I think "Dysthymia" is more made up than the rest of this crap. Like Harry Potter is prolly more real. I tried reconnecting with and seeing my childhood T who has since morphed into the Wicked Witch of the East, but she had diagnosed me with Dysthymia when I saw her...it just sounds like "Depression, Light but Constant" (or a commercial geared towards feminine protection).

Before I even had depression, my T after her ("childhood T" her) had me as GAD. Yes, I am SUPER anxious...so even though he was very unhelpful for 5 years, he was right on the money there.

The next T I saw who was awesome (until he terminated me out of nowhere and let me fall flat on my face) had me as OCD. Um. That's it? Where'd my anxiety go? Is it missing, am I cured?? (Of course, all of these are just codes sent to insurance he explained...but I want everything I "am" documented and put on paper. Period.)

Next guy I am seeing now, OCD code again (really people??)...although I started drowning in depression not long after we began, so I hope he has added it (will have to ask), because when I file for disability in the near future I think they are going to see OCD as "pays attention to detail" and find me a new job themselves, damnit.

My pdoc has me as having Major Depression (thank you, someone!, although that means I might have both this "creative" Dysthymia and Major Depression at once, if that is possible...I think it's like having a cold and the flu at once. You probably won't notice the cold. )

He also has me as having Anxiety-NOS, meaning "not otherwise specified." This must be a cousin of Dysthymia...I tried looking at the symptoms, and I am at a complete loss since I clearly have GAD. And you can throw in the OCD if you want fries with that.

So I am probably Majorly GAD-OCD Dysthymically Depressed. Now I just need a code for that, DSM-V.

Originally Posted by 1Buster

The "douchebaggery" is a self-diagnosis based a lot on how my wife reacts to my brilliant sense of humor. I'm not sure it's correct, though, since it quite often mimics the symptoms of "dickheadedness" - also a very plausible condition in my case.

BTW, the door is not nearly as big a deal as it felt last night. Plus, I can just blame it on the kids - they break ***t around here all the time.

Blaming stuff on the kids makes total sense.
And your original post is great, btw. Thanks for helping me vent about this mess.
And I want to break a door.

[shortandcute]

Well, I definatly have major depressive disorder, but there are times when it's very mild.

[Arethusa]

I've been diagnosed with Major Depression, never dysthymia.

[1Buster]

The Dysthymia was a surprise only b/c I thought my diagnosis was Depression until I got the papers. Looking at the descriptions and symptoms, Dysthymia looks more accurate - in fact if you want to know how I feel and act every day just look up Dysthymia online!

Here's the first (maybe best) analogy in my distorted mind: Dysthymia = my favorite sports cliché these days - an athlete feeling "flu-like symptoms" on game day, except it's every friggin' day. MDD = THE F'ing FLU!, i.e., stuck on the toilet while puking in the trash can.

Try not to visualize that.