We had this fundraiser where you walk around for an hour to see how much you can walk. You could listen to music, and talk to your friends and have a good time. Not me. No one would go near me. I walked the entire hour alone. Even the people I knew only acknowledged I was in their presence. We came back and went to lunch and I told my friend this and they said,"awww". I thought that I didn't need their sympathy and I don't blame the others for not wanting to talk to me, cuz I'm stupid and I keep telling myself I am ugly. So I left the table after that thought and sat alone again. I spent the rest of the time thinking to myself things like,"you really are the ugliest person ever" which I am, but who cares? Anyways, I was also telling myself "you are not only ugly but fat too" "it's a good thing you didn't talk to anyone, because if you did they would walk away because it would be like there talking to no one your so worthless" Now I feel depressed. Like I always have been. God bless anyone who says something, ANYTHING to this thread.

Oops accidentally posted this twice! Heheh...

You're basing your view of yourself too much on what other people might or might not be thinking. Your self-esteem needs boosting, so I would suggest to you that:

1. You are not ugly; you see yourself that way, but that's a mistaken view. Turn
that attitude around and say to yourself: "I am worthy, and I am nice and I am good".
If you are not handsome or beautiful that can always be corrected by being a good
person who is kind and helpful and means to be nice. Looks are only of surface meaning,
and it's what's inside you that draws people to you in friendship.

2. Think more about positive things in life. You build your friendships by being helpful, kind, and considerate of others--thinking about them as good people, too, because in most cases they are. Most people mean well. When you encounter someone who is not kind and nice, just simply be pleasant, but don't take seriously anything he or she might say or do.

3. Realize that when people speak they are talking really about themselves, not you.
So if you see a negative view or a positive view, remember that people are talking about themselves, not you.

4. You have as much to give in kindness, good will, and pleasantness as any other person alive. Please try hard to give yourself credit for being genuinely a good person.
Remember, you were created by God and God doesn't make mistakes.

Take care of yourself and good wishes.

[Silent Void]

Ignore what the negative types think about you. Focus on your studies. School is crucial to your future. The opinions of small-minded hypocrites are not.

When they're jerks, smile like you have a secret. It will drive them nuts.

Thank you...so much you have no idea what this means to me. I really wish I could hug you guys...so what if I don't know you!