[dannybrown]

I'm new here so ill provide some background information
I'm a 17 year old female who started failing in school because i wasnt able to attend due to crying everyday and such. About 6 months ago i was put on 10 mg of Cipralex/Lexapro for major depression and social anxiety, which helped the depression but not the anxiety so about two months after i was moved up to 15 mg. So for the past three months i was feeling great and i was excited to go out to parties with my boyfriend and wasnt scared to walk onto a bus and was able to talk to people with little troubles. but for the past month ive been very negative worrying about who i'm gonna invite for my birthday feeling like i have no friends and that it will be boring, ive been mad at my mom and because of the anti anxiety meds i havent been scared to yell at her and make me feel terrible for doing so. everything my boyfriend has been doing and saying has annoyed me and ill stay in bed all day at his house if were hanging out and when we do go out there isnt any conversation at all. i'm scared that me feeling boring and shy lately is changing my opinion of me and my boyfriends strong relationship and i dont want him to realize ive been acting weird again and give up on me. my therapist left for vacation two weeks ago and i wasnt concerned before but now im feeling worse nd shes gone till august 14th and i dont know what to do i dont want to go back to the way i was.

[herethennow]

Hi danny, welcome to PC!

It seems like you're in so much pain.. Does the medication help you to alleviate some of these pain?

I guess people go through the motions, and at times we can lose our temper.. how did your mom react when you yelled at her? Have you made any pre-emptive measures after that?

Does your boyfriend know about the pain you're going through? It'll be good to share with him and he might be more understanding about your current situation.

It's okay to feel bad.. Therapists are trained for these things. It does happen in majority. Personally I've had experience where I felt good during my appointment with my pdoc, only to come back 3 days later feeling super super sui and down.. which led to a hospitalisation. In the meantime, do you have anyone to confide in with your troubles? Can you keep yourself safe?

In depression, it's always a rollercoaster. We'll have our downs.. and our occasional ups. I guess what we really need is to accept these feelings and genuine feelings, and with that we can work out something to sort it all out.

Hope you'll feel better soon!

htn

[AV747]

Talk to your family and boyfriend , tell them how you feel. If you falsely speak with them, write them a letter, it will help you. Depression just need to communicate. I hope you feel better!

[bharani1008]

Maybe if your boyfriend and your mother know how you are feeling they won't take your words to heart. Tell them that you need to see your therapist you are just trying to hold things together until she gets back.
Go ahead and try to plan your birthday. Get your bf to help you choose music and activities. Do what you've seen other people your age do. As long as there is music and good food most people find things to do on their own. Give really good food.
Don't worry about being so social right now. Keep in touch enough so they don't forget about you but just do what you are comfortable with
Hold on until your therapist returns. Remember that she is able to help feel good and focus on that.
I hope you feel better soon.