[InfiniteSadness]

It seems like to do anything productive is an effort for me.. Everything i do is usually "half hearted".. I know i have depression but geeze.. I also have trouble expressing any kind of enthusiasm. I really wish it wasnt this way. Just feel like a dead fish. I wish there was a medicine or something that would address this.. (instead of feeling like i have to force my self to do everything and feel anything)

[ThisWayOut]

depression can do that to you... are you on meds now? this may be something to address with your doctor... if you are on meds and still feel this way, they may need tweaking. al lack of enthusiasm is lingering depression... sorry it's so difficult to muster anything. I can relate... ((hugs))

[InfiniteSadness]

Is it really just a matter of meds at this point?

[Bluegerbera1]

I think Meds are used to get us past the worst but we need more than that if we are to fully deal with whatever issues are causing the depression. My own lack of effort and enjoyment is making me feel so guilty. My OH has taken the day off today to do whatever I want and I'm struggling to come up with anything at all that I want to do. He made some suggestions last night so I'm going to have to pretend that I'm up for one of them. I wish I didn't feel like this and fully sympathise with you.
D you have access to any kind of therapy? I start tomorrow and I'm really anxious about it but I'm hoping that it will help.

[InfiniteSadness]

I dont know if this is all depression?? or personality? Also, the feeling of Apathy never goes away fully

[Lab_Rat]

I know how you feel. Getting through the day and doing productive things is an effort. I also don't have a passion for anything. I like a lot of stuff but I don't get super excited and jump up and down. It comes across like I don't care. (Most of the time I don't) I'm jealous of people that have full emotions.

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[Rohag]

Originally Posted by InfiniteSadness

I dont know if this is all depression?? or personality?

This is a question I ask myself. Without a doubt, prolonged depression has affected my personality. Yet I wonder if the persistence of my depression has something to do with my early life. All I have are speculations.

Originally Posted by InfiniteSadness

Also, the feeling of Apathy never goes away fully

This is also true of my experience of depression.

[gbflat]

i feel lazy even though it is an illness