[skiptb1]

Hello all, I am new here. I am a 27yo female, married to the same man since I was 16, and have two children aged 10(son) and 7(daughter). I have battled depression off and on for the last ten years. Pretty much since my son was born. I have good times and bad times. Generally every year about summertime I start going downhill again, (it is like the opposite of the SAD disorder!) I have gained lots of weight over the years, and now I have a hard time making myself eat, I have lost almost 50 lbs this year and counting, and I cannot make myself eat better. I really want to. I am down to 119 lbs, I am only 4'10".

Already this is lengthy...Thanks for listening if you are still reading. I have worked in a psych facility for almost four years now, and I cannot handle it any longer. It makes me feel worse, there is so much stress there, and everyone staff and patients alike are so depressed and in a bad mood all the time. I think this is the sickest I have ever been. I also have Trichotillomania (hair pulling). But if you saw me you would never know. Everyone tells me how great I look, but all I know is how horrible I feel. I wish I knew why I feel sick all the time and cannot eat, when before all I did was eat.

Well so sorry this is long, I'm sure I will have much more to add as time goes on, that is if you all are receptive to listening to my ramblings.

Thanks for listening, and I am glad to be here, hopefully amongst people who are going through the same things.

[Danialla]

Welcome! This is a great community for support, so you have come to the right place.

Take care...

[FaithisAlive]

Hi! Are you seeing a counselor for depression or have you seen a doctor for it? It sounds like your environment truly needs improving so you can find a way to feel better.

I am new here too and so far I have been welcomed and given the support I was looking for. I hope it will be the same for you.

Peace

[skiptb1]

I have seen lots of doctors, psychiatrists, counselors, you name it. Been on lots of different meds, that were totally not right for me over the years too.

So now I am just wingin it on nothin, no meds, no counseling....and obviously it is not working!

[(JD)]

Welcome to PC! I still think you need to find someone IRL to talk with about your feelings. Wouldn't you like to keep working, if you could handle the stress? Sometimes when ppl work in that field, they think no one can really tell them anything "new." I'm sure you really do know so much! However, it would help you to have a colleague or someone who is a T who will help you change your responses to what you are experiencing.

I have terrible problems with meds, too... but you have to keep trying. You don't have to suffer this way, and you don't have to go it alone. TC!

[heartspace]

Welcome skip!

[mssumom]

Welcome skip!! I to am new here in the past few days and it has been a life saver for me (literally!) I have to say that my major depression that I was diagnosised with was when my youngest child....daughter who is now 18yrs and just left for college a couple of weeks ago. People I have talked to on here have been very supportive and wonderful listeners. Please stick around!!

[Bethsway]

skiptb1 welcome aboard...PC is a great place to be...You will find the people are very caring and interested in others...hello hello

[Hopefull]

Welcome to psych central. Rant all you like. I know I like to rant here.