[lizcb]

My name is Liz. I am 16 and a high school drop out. Ever since I was about 11 I have always been sad. I have always cried for no reason but, when I'm around my friends I laugh and smile and hang out. It just when I'm alone I feel scard and sad. Now, I still feel that way but when I was younger I always thought about killing myself. I tried to a couple of times but, I don't wanna get into that. I used to cut myself too. My boyfriend and my friends all have took away my razors and knifes and now i don't even think about it, so I know I've over come that. But, I now I still wanna go to my room and cry. I don't know why that. I have a wonderful family and a boyfriend who I know I'm gonna spend the rest of my life with. I just know it. I love him so much. I just wanna know whats wrong with me. Could somebody just help me a little bit. Tell me what could be wrong and what to do please.
~Liz

[pegasus]

Hello Liz,

Welcome to Psych Central!

I'm glad that you have some good things going on in your life.

Did something happen to you when you were about 11 years old to set this all off?

I think it would be helpful for you to talk with someone about how you are feeling.

It might be helpful to talk to a doctor, or counsellor about having some counselling.

Take care.

[Christina86]

Hi lizcb, welcome to PC!

Sorry if I go off on a bit of a tangent, but I wanted to share a little bit of myself to see if anything of what I say "fits" or can apply to you and your life.

I have a nice family too, and am seeing a guy myself. But I'm still miserable. I feel alone and that a lot of my life has been wasted doing things others wanted me to do and me thinking about stuff I should have done and stuff I shouldn't have as well. Being alone is very depressing, and it makes me scared and sad too - and I hide behind a mask of being happy or can only be happy when I'm around my friends.

I don't know what could be wrong, but because everyone is different I really couldn't tell you. I just know that it will get better and that being sad doesn't mean you always will be.

My suggestions? Find someone to talk to. Someone who won't judge you - if you can get a religious official (if you're religious), a therapist, a counsellor, or a really good friend... that can help. Talking can help bring to light any problems or feelings that could be making you less than happy.

*hugs* I hope you feel better soon and find someone to talk to.

[FaithisAlive]

Have you been evaluated for bipolar? It could easily be something biological since you have had this problem for so long.

I agree that it could be from something traumatic that happened to you when you were 11 that you have blocked out. I have had this problem for years... blocking memories and being depressed for seemingly no reason.

I would suggest therapy as thats the only thing that has helped me sort it all out.Its good that you are in a loving realtionship because this can helpo you as you work this out.

Wishing you the best~