[depressivegirl]

I'm 14 and I've gone through really strong depressive phases.And my parents did know of some of them but the stronger I've is the one I'm in right now.Some weeks ago I started to cut myself and now I've been nearly two without doing it.I told one of my friends (is the only one that knows about that) But I feel like she don't know cause most of the times I call her I'm crying but she don't realised (cause I cry really soft) But the worst part is that she is laughing cause most of the times I call she is with her friends (I just have to , for this reason I am so upset)I thought of going to the hospital and ask for help.But I don't want my family to know about.What should I do?

Hello there.
First let me start off by saying that I feel your feels. . .
Okie, I would look into a crisis center and consider staying there for a couple days. I just got back from being at a hospital for a couple days, it helped tons. Depending on which hospital you go to, I'm sure you'll get the help you need as well. If you ever need to talk (phone, internet, whatevs) I am here.
I'm not sure if I helped or not, but I'm a good listener.
Good luck <3
Nikole~

[Inedible]

The trouble with feeling depressed (and useless) is that it is hard to fix the feelings by arguing with them. It sounds even worse from someone online who doesn't know you. What I can tell you is that just by being human and by being alive, you can be sure that you do have enormous potential. The one person it is hardest to find potential in is yourself. There is value, or use in, being able to help other people see their own genuine value, especially when they have trouble finding it themselves. The only way to see and recognize value in other people is to have your own value. You won't see in others what you don't have in yourself. Whenever you see something you like in someone else, you can be sure that you have it also. You do have value.

[bharani1008]

You need to tell some adult you trust about how you are feeling. It will be difficult for you to manage on your own. You need professional help. It is hard for ANYone to get control over feelings like the ones you are experiencing. Also it is hard for your friends to understand and help unless they have experienced the same thing. They aren't ignoring you. They just can't understand.
Feeling worthless is a major symptom in depression. It isn't the truth. It's only a symptom like fever is a symptom of the flu. It can be controlled with the help of a doctor.
Please talk to someone soon. Also you can call helplines for help. There are probably some in your community. If not then there is a long list of help numbers at the head of this forum named Depression Resources.
Keep posting here as much as you need to. We will be there to support you.
Good luck

[unfearless]

Originally Posted by depressivegirl

I'm 14 and I've gone through really strong depressive phases.And my parents did know of some of them but the stronger I've is the one I'm in right now.Some weeks ago I started to cut myself and now I've been nearly two without doing it.I told one of my friends (is the only one that knows about that) But I feel like she don't know cause most of the times I call her I'm crying but she don't realised (cause I cry really soft) But the worst part is that she is laughing cause most of the times I call she is with her friends (I just have to , for this reason I am so upset)I thought of going to the hospital and ask for help.But I don't want my family to know about.What should I do?

hi, i'm still surrounded with depression too, in fact i'm really depressed at the moment. I read your post. I hope you're not doing "cut yourself" anymore, just write in here when you're depressed, find some support from all members in here, they all have the same/similar problems with you.

Some friends cant understand how we feel, how we depressed, because they dont know anything about depression, they never feel depression. I've tried to talk with a few "normal" friends about my depression, but they just wont get it.

If you want to find help, you can always do that by yourself, find the nearest hospital, psychiatrist, take a visit, or try to find a support group, counseling, online help. Of course, its easy for me to say, it's easier said than done, but you'll find your own way, just dont harm yourself okay. I never told my parents about my depression too, i'm very quiet in the family.

[ajmich]

As you can see, people care and you've taken the right step by posting here. The main thing is to talk to someone ASAP, and don't worry about your parents or anyone else finding out. There's nothing to be ashamed about... don't put yourself down over this. Hard to do, easy to say, I know. But those here on this service have been through it and know how it feels. We are rooting for you, just take that next step, you are worth it. Peace.