[ThisWayOut]

I was running from this for a while, and today it hit like a ton of bricks. I'm sad and hopeless and hating myself all over again (after a few weeks of a break from the heaviness of it all). It's raining and I want to go for a bike ride (just got "new to me" bike recently after not having one for 2 decades). If it were not lightning out, I would probably be out right now... I love the rain. It's relaxing and makes everything better.

[gayleggg]

So sorry you are feeling so down. Hope you feel better soon and that the sun comes out so you can go ride your bike.

[ThisWayOut]

I see t later today. Part of me hopes to be able to tell her how tired I am, a bigger part wants me to remember to shut up about it: don't mention the semi-controlled crash because she's likely to make me do something about it. That's not the action I want to take...
I'm supposed to volunteer today, and its about the last thing I want to do. I committed myself to 2 days a week, which was stupid because I struggle with going the one. Depression sucks. Hopelessness sucks. This all sucks...

[Edda]

I love the rain too.
Why not cycle in it or just walk?
I find it extremely therapeutic.

Be well.

[gracez]

i love the rain too! where i live it barely ever rains. the other day it did for all of about say 10 minutes. i rode thru the puddles and screamed like a kid. it was the best time i had in ages. i'm almost always hopeless.

thanks for posting, i'm here to listen / read.

xxx