[izzyfg2000]

I haven't told anyone about how I feel, and I feel like I'm going to explode if I don't tell anyone. So, forgive me for the long post.

When I was a baby, my parents got divorced. That was the only life I knew with my parents. I got to spend a couple days with mom, then a couple with dad, and so on. I was bullied a lot, even during first grade. I had/have different tastes in things than other kids I knew, making me an "outsider."

Around a year ago, my mom and stepdad had gotten divorced, and that caused me to be separated with my step dad, step sister, and dog, who I was all very close to. Not long after that, my dad moved across the country for a job, and now I rarely see him. And now, I'm going to to a school where everyone is actually smart and I don't know anyone.

I get bullied. I get unexplained headaches and stomachaches. I've thought about self harm ,and i've had suicidal thoughts multiple times. I dont seem to show my true feelings when I'm around people. I'm just so scared that no one will care.

Ok, so that's the end of my post. Sorry for making you read all of that, I just needed to get that off of my chest. Some things I left out because I didn't want to make this too lengthy, and I don't want to expose my entire personal life.

[Samanthagreene]

I'm so sorry you're going through this right now. I, too, struggle with self-harm and suicidal thoughts, although mine are not caused by stress in my life. If you want to talk, I'd be happy to listen (or read, I suppose) and I hope things get better soon.
Oh, and about the stomach and headaches, I had a friend who did this and it turned out they were just a physical manifestation of her stress. I don't know if that applies to you, but maybe.
Even more, about the self-harm and suicide, it's probably best to talk to someone about that, or at least check out the self injury and depression forums here. It's never normal to seriously think about those things and both lead down a slippery slope.

[izzyfg2000]

Thanks. I think the headaches and stomachaches are caused because of stress. I've realized more and more that i should get help soon, and this site has really been helping me. Thanks again, samantha.

[Idiot17]

Don't be sorry, we all need to get things of our chests. Try to speak to someone about your true feelings. ((((izzyfg))))