[dandylin]

I remembered this morning that I had joined this site. I hope it's to my survival.

Today I am suffering from a very strong compulsion to die. I have been fairly level for a while and in therapy for over a year. But this morning and part of yesterday I am so depressed and suicidal.

It's been a while since I have felt that way and I am caught off guard by it.

I feel like I am going to carry this sudden and awful pain around forever. And I don't think I can bear that

[tealBumblebee]

If I knew the words to help you feel better, i'd say them. But unfortunetly I don't. What I CAN tell you is that you are in my thoughts and prayers and I sincerely hope that your mood picks back up. Life is rough, and I used to think about ending it all of the time. However, now i've gotten to a point where I still think about dieing but there is a little piece of me that just doesn't want to. Not sure what my motivation to live is just yet, but perhaps you too can one day at least get to this next step in life preservation.

Wishing you the best, and although a stranger, I truly do care about you.

[spondiferous]

It's difficult to get through it. I'm in it right now. I haven't had a depression this bad since I don't know when. Please know you're not alone. Keep coming back here, if anything else. Distract yourself. Do whatever you have to.

[online user]

Just take things a bit at a time while you are feeling this badly. Call a hotline if you need to--they really do help. It's a voice on the phone, anonymous, to whom you can speak with no fear who will not be judgemental, but caring and compassionate. And know we are here and pulling for you.

Susan

[Rohag]

Welcome to posting, Dandylin. I echo what all the others say above. Please do what you need to remain safe.