[akekaomen]

I find myself taking a lot of unscheduled sick days because I can't bring myself to get to work. I used to feel horrible about this, but today I'm not feeling bad. I think I'm pushing the idea that this is just what it takes for me to cope with life right now. I can be proud of the fact that I made it 2 weeks without taking a day off and I have just enough time to take today. If I can get through the next two weeks, I'll have enough for another day if it comes up or possibly I'll be able to cope.

Not sure why I'm posting this except to just communicate with others who would understand that taking this day off and not feeling guilty and bad is a success. So many others view it as a failure and even I beat myself up in the past about it. What I have to do now to cope is not necessarily what I'll have to do for the rest of my life. There are changes happening with my medicine finally and I am hoping to get neuropsych testing to see if there's an underlying cause to my depression and anxiety.

I still feel low energy and I hope I can get into the routine tomorrow and the next few weeks, but let's not suffer future pain. When they come, I will tackle the problem then.

[Shadow13]

Thanks for posting this.
These past few years I use up all my time usually by halfway through the year. Then I struggle terribly and take days immediately the first of the new year.
Vicious cycle.

[online user]

Glad you found a way to cope that works for you for now. Hope the med changes and testing work out something better for you for the long term.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by akekaomen

What I have to do now to cope is not necessarily what I'll have to do for the rest of my life.

Thank you for posting. This is an important point.

[redbandit]

I have called in so many times sick, because I was too depressed to go to work. *HUGS * if hope you feel better y

[kirby777]

,

When I was working, I used to do that as well. I would wake up @5 am and just feel so anxious and depressed, I would call out sick (which I was, mentally). I did feel guilty for a while, but it did not do any good. In my situation, my manager could have/should have made ADA accomodations for me....he did not.

Do what is best for YOU!

[akekaomen]

Now the hard part is being back at work today and not being able to take another sick day for 2 weeks. Hopefully I'll be able to manage.

It won't do me any good to get frustrated with the fact that I have to use up so much energy. I'll try to distract as needed and stay in the moment.