[LadyDragus]

for some odd reason I feel the darkness coming hard and heavey.. and I have no idea why

I just feel like curlling up and not going on. It is nto school it is just me..
I feel so alone, in this cold harsh world.. and I have no idea where these feelings are coming from.. I wish i did know..

But everytime I say I need something they do nto listen, or say they do not want to get invloved.. Aren't you invloved from brith?? Are you not invloved if you see her, play with her and take her from her home???
I am so frustrated right now.. all I want to do is Cut or something..

These walls are closing in on me.. I do not know what to do

<font color=purple>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- G.K. Chesterton
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[dexter]

(((((((( LD ))))))))

I wonder if something is going around today because i just feel extra awful too. i don't know if you saw my post elsewhere but i watched the i love lucy episode today where she thought everyone forgot her birthday and joined the "friends of the friendless". i feel just like that today. of course she had a happy ending, ricky had been planning a huge surprize party for 2 weeks. the people in my life really did forget my birthday, and i wish some friends of the friendless would knock on my door today.

people can be so frustrating, but you still have us here who care about you and understand. we can give you some of what you need: some listening, understanding, support and love.

May we both get past this rough point. hand in there LD and be sure you are taking care of yourself even if no one around you is helping out.

-- The world is what we make of it --
-- Dave
-- <A target="_blank" HREF=http://www.idexter.com>http://www.idexter.com</A>

[krzyk101]

((((((((((Lady D)))))))))))

I have not the words to say, that may brighten up your day, other than I am thinking of you, and myself today, I pretty much feel the same way.

For what it is worth, I wish you a better rest of today.

Take Care

KRIS

"I'm Not Crazy I'm Just a Little Unwell"

If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!

[LadyDragus]

Thank you.. so much

<font color=purple>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- G.K. Chesterton
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[LadyDragus]

I can understand what you are saying..

I just do not know how to handle this.. I have never had this problem before..
What do you do

<font color=purple>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- G.K. Chesterton
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[dexter]

I'm not really sure what i do . when i was released from the hospital months ago i was good at overcoming my desire to isolate myself, i stayed in touch with my friends and was able to call them when i felt really bad.

i also called hotline numbers a lot.

my friends have all but disappeared and i feel so alone and that makes it worse. i got tired of calling the hotlines because it got to the point where i knew their "script" better than they did. i also had two bad experiences when calling... by far in the minority but my desire to call has been less.

honestly i feel like i am just hanging on by sheer will. coming here helps a lot and i try to send some emails out. i've been trying to stay busy but last few days i've been unable to concentrate.

i'm just hanging on, still working on it. don't have any real hope but i'm just focusing my energy on not quitting.

i hope i'm not making you feel worse. at the very least i can feel your pain and hopefully it will get better.

(((((LD)))))

-- The world is what we make of it --
-- Dave
-- <A target="_blank" HREF=http://www.idexter.com>http://www.idexter.com</A>

[LadyDragus]

I have to do that a lot..


I have to keep up my courage for my daughters sake and I hardly ever take time for myslef..

<font color=purple>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- G.K. Chesterton
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[dexter]

LD

Hope this cheers you up, at least for a few moments:



we love you

-- The world is what we make of it --
-- Dave
-- <A target="_blank" HREF=http://www.idexter.com>http://www.idexter.com</A>

[LadyDragus]

I love that thank you..
Can I save this to my hard drive so I can always have it???

<font color=purple>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- G.K. Chesterton
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[dexter]

of course you can!

and you can link to it as long as i have it in my webspace at http://www.idexter.com/misc/hugs/lady_dragus_hug.gif

Also feel free to upload it to your own webspace so you can link to it from there in case me or mine goes flaky

it is on a background that matches the background color of these psychcentral forums, if you link it somewhere else you'll see the box around it. if you want one with a black background let me know and i'll make one that shows up in black... or another color background if you need it.

-- The world is what we make of it --
-- Dave
-- <A target="_blank" HREF=http://www.idexter.com>http://www.idexter.com</A>

[LadyDragus]

ok I have no idea how to link it to my website.. but I will fiqure it out somehow..

But thank you

<font color=purple>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- G.K. Chesterton
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[goggles]

Lady Dragusdeliciousness,

Are you feeling better??
Even slightly? Cos slightly better is better isn't it?
Thankyou for replying to my post. You've made me feel better tonight.
I don't know what I wanted to do, flush my head down the toilet or something, I get sooooo frustrated......

Let us know how you are doing, you are so kind and thoughtful, with
love Goggles xxxx

Haven't sussed out the pictures yet, but I will in future and I'll send you a bunch of roses.

[LadyDragus]

You made me laugh.. today the first reall time I have lauged in a few days..

Thank you for making me smile and laugh..
Worried my daugther.. somewhat, cause I do not laugh that oftne..

<font color=purple>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- G.K. Chesterton
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